Contemplate

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Why am i so busy everyday? How i hope i have another 6 hours

per day. Heavy responsibilities seems to be slowing my steps.

Honestly, i've lost my momentum totally.

I've been feeling lost and hopeless the past 2 months.

Everyone seems to be coping well with the tests, new topics etc.

What about me? To date, i think i've yet to get myself ready.

A very good evidence is my first common test results.

It shocked me, it really did. Despite being disappointed, i kept

telling myself to start studying to start studying but i never did.

Even if i spent hours sitting there trying hard to get books into

my head, it wasn't sucessful and was all in vain.

Recently, my mind doesn't seems to be with me. I've been

thinking of many redundant issues that i shouldn't at this

point of time. Everyone patted my shoulder and said

"Aiyah, don't worry it's a norm to get disastrous results in the

early stage of sec 5 but as time goes, you'll see the difference".

Do i have to go an extra mile and put in concerted effort?

Or do i just sit back, relax and still think that i'll be smart

enough to do last-minute-work? The teachers words have

been inccessantly ringing in my ears loud and clear even before

bed. But i just can't do it. i can't i can't i can't my confidence

is at it's lowest pit nowadays. What is missing from me now?

Wheres the Eileen i've seen last year? Disappeared.

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Feelings grow..... my did.

I just hope to build a relationship with a strong base now.

Because i know, when exams starts nearing i'll be deprived of

time. Time is precious i'll try my best to let our time tick

away meaningfully making sure we've cherish and made use

of every minute, every second.

I wonder if i ever treated you well enough. Did i?

Loveyou, weising.

(I'll be back to upload the pictures later! too many of em)

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It was hell-stressful for the whole time of last week.

Tests for us seems endless, new topics for us to learn within a

short time seems ever acheivable to the teachers, we've never

seemed to keep up to the expectations of the school ever since

creating the history of the whole class being eligible for sec5.

Whats all these nonsense being incessant?

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To add on, my results were terrible, horrifying and disgusting.

For your information i failed my english for the first time

in my entire secondary school life getting an ugly F9. Maths

with a B3, Science with a C5, Chinese with a C6, CombiH

with a D7 and Poa with a F9. Which sums up to passing only

three subjects this time round. How fabulous is that eileen?

I'm so afraid to break these news to my parents.

I swear i'll just be disappointing them a great-big time.

I needa mug mug mug mug. Time isin't on my side baby.

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On the lighter note, I gave school a slip today as the cramps

were really bad. hmmm... but it appears to be alright now(?)

Anyw, i'll be meeting zilahgirlf at tm ard 2 later as i can't

stand it anymore! i need to freagging shop and get myself

pretty clothes! thereafter, we'll be meeting ivy and the rest

for a lunchtreat by the birthday girl. So sweet of her isin't it?

Happy birthday in advanced! love you always shortie<3

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I might be meeting weising for movie later....

not really sure yet though. Pardon me i need to rant a lil.

This ugly boy of mine went to cut his hair last week and it

looks totally nightmare to me. Why like that?!?!!

Still love you though :)

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ROMP IV at Zouk(r&b) + Phuture(trance) on the 15th

march for $20. A cheaperoo grab! Get all your girlfriends

there and have the night fun and cheeky. Tag me or

Email me at Eileen_bluesky@hotmail.com if interested.

Hi all, menses cramps killing me badly now.

Tons of pictures need to be uploaded.

I'll blog tomorrow. Sorry for the missing!

Valentine's day.

"Happy belated V'day readers!"

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Let me rant a lil here first okay?

Anyw, i lost my Dkny watch mom bought for me on the

bbq night. This is infuriating! i swearrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

AND AND AND i lost my fav ring at wisma's forever21

ytd. Guess how..............?

i went to buy rings and i think while trying out the

size, i left my ring at i-don't-know-where.

Some assholes must have took it since that ring is

so pretty. Indeed, friday the 13th is really creepy.

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However........

Theres someone i ought to really really thank.

and it is non other than...... ngweising :)

Who will be that nice to

cab to eastcoastpark to see if my watch is still ard

without any complains even though i woke him up

early in the morning and even blamed him for not

keeping my watch? Who will withstand all my

naggings and nonsense? Who will say "nevermind i

still love you" even though i made him so angry?

Who will be so cute to cook for me because he made

me angry? I think no one other than you.

Happybelatedvdayweising,loveyouk!

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Of course... not to forget my bestfriends,

Justin Eugenia Zilah Jolene Wanzhuang Xinci......

Ahpweee! thanks for being there ok! get well soon..

Love you ppl too! *hugs and kisses*

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This is such a sweet and mushy post.

HAHAHAHAH WHATEVER I'LL BE BACK.

Interested in selling tix, tag me!

Hi to all, those interested in selling tix for parties,

Tag me. I'll blog soon! bbq tmr :)

With love.

Bored.

This was taken ages back.

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I failed physics. Helllloooo can anyone believe this?

How am i gonna maintain my A1 this way? no idea.

Can't blame... Physics is always the one pulling my

marks down. Damn it.

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Woooh finally tmr i'll be having the last paper.

Actually i don't really give a damn to poa anyway.

I totally have no idea how am i gonna score for 0s.

I need the drive to study please help me help!

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Shit i need to go onstage to read a book review to

the school during morning assembly on thursday.

I feeeling so jittery now.

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Yay friday 13th bbq at ecp with weising and friends.

The weather will be fine than any other! [i hope]

How do my readers normally celebrate v'day huh?

Tag me tag me! that's so interesting!

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You.

Helloweising.

Thanks for being there.

Loveyou.

Hello. Should i club tonight?

Should i should i should i?

I've gotten back my maths results! wanna make a guess?

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26/40

I would say, not that good. but guess what........

15 in our class failed and theres only 15 getting a b3 and

abv. That includes me! : )

Nevertheless, i'll work harder to make sure i'll get at

at least beautiful distinctions for the next few exams.

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i'll be back. xoxo

Chinese new year day 2.

"Miss blogging so much...."

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Ages since i last blogged. I'm so sorry! i've been having

my common test this week till next wednesday and it's

really driving me mad to venus! Schedule as tight as ever.

Time never seems to be enough for me these days.

What's more for maths paper for tomorrow? I'm dead.

Nothing touched, nothing revised and nothing practised.

I'll just keep my fingers crossed that i'll be that lucky.

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Anyw, chinese on tuesday was a disaster. The topic that

came out wasn't in the list of my forte and it gave the

whole lot of us quite an unpleasant suprise. Tried the

Anglo-chinese sec's chinese prelim paper and gotten

shitty marks. 13/30. Oh well.... maybe my chinese ain't

that good afterall. Shan't lose faith! Instead, i'll work

harder to make sure my marks improve. It doesn't

matter if it's just one or two marks... as long as i keep

improving. Oh yeah, English on monday was still

alright for me. My target is to at least get a B3-B4.

It'll be best if i can acheive better grades of course.

I can't believe how confident i was doing my SS paper

today. It was the first time in my life i know the

answer by heart.

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Okay so sorry about that. Just realise that up till now

everything that i've said is about school school and school.

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I'm thinking of getting a new phone.

Nokia E65 E66 or any other good recommendations?

Please give me some advice and tag me sweeeties!

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Weising! study hard please.