after so many experience in friends and trying to learn more about guys

my conclusion is : sometimes guys just can't be bothered by small little things

while girls always get so irritated, bothered, jealous & fucked up

by all those "small little things" guys think in their way! * roars*

actually, girls are veryvery easy to understand all u have to do is be sweeet, caring

& understanding to us thats all. u have to know that ALL THE GIRLS

IN THE EARTH DO GET BOTHERED OR JEALOUS OVER SMALL THINGS.

try finding other girls, its all the same :D scary isin't it?

for me its simple. i need 3 big things.
FIRST: UNDERSTANDING

haaaaaaaa i have a veryverysuper bad temper! but recently i have

no idea why i coooled down seriously ALOT after being with mr woo because

he had beeeen training my patience in almost everything. thankyou dearie (:

but sometimes i seriously can't stand & there my temper will go again

i'll be mean and not understanding at all but you have to understand alright!

cause i seriously don't wannna quarrel with you as much as how much i quarreled with my ex.

SECONDLY: CARING

please take note of this sentence people :D

NO MATTER WHAT ALL THE GUYS SHOULD DOTE ON THEIR GIRL

its the rule of the game. haaaaaaaaaa we can really seee the smalll little things.

even playing with our hair and holding us do make us alot happier trust me ^^

and when we say that we are sick/not feeling well/feeling down

the keyword is ask a WHY and start caring. because its really ur business!

personally i would prefer ppl to care too much rather than not caring at all.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST: DEVOTION

heyyyyyy! devotion is a big word okay. try loving the same old person for 2yrs

i know i know its boring, tiring, and difficult for you guys. BUT

would u chooose someone u've work hard to understand and love for 2 yrs or someone

u just met not long ago? or just because the new one may loook more appealing to you?

it takes two hands to clap for a relationship to last.

sooooooooooooo both parties must be able to resist the temptations*

for devotion, i'll know if its just a crush or really a love. no worries =DD

&& no mattter what, i'll try my very best

just to be with you. (:

sorrrry yea today not at home can't post any pictures.

so i shall just talk about the past few days :D

all i can remember is... ytd my dear one came my house at 2am(:

ask him come accompany me end up he acccompany me for that 1hr playing o2jam

den my mother ask me go watch the tv programme for abt 5 mins only

den went back to my rooom he sleeeping soundly on my piano cover =,=

gah* how cute my dearie was lah! :DDDDDDDDD

since cab fare got midnight charge so ex my mother just let him stay over

for the night ^^ hahaaaa! papa can't stop mama~

*ROARS* today morning i woke up at 10am thought dear one

wanna go home ask him wake up all he reply was "umm still early"

seee how troublesome guys can get! nevertheless, i still love you hubbby! ^^

LOL. he woke up ard 2 i think... den i quickly got ready & went amk with him.

&& i enjoy the days with you dear<3>

andddddddd i can't wait for 3 weeeks to see you lei darling ):

sometimes i really do wonder what can i do to make you happy

when everything doesn't seeems to be appreciated.

is that what we term as "love" huh?

)= i really want to make you feeel happy and loved .......

*gah* nvm

okay lets drop that topic :DDDDDDDDDD

i don't wanna think of disheartening things i wanna be happy.

today went to sing with friends from 2 -6 (:

had fun! && i misss all my primary school mates!

especially people like shermaine, litong, jingwen ++++

okay toooo bad i'm still thinking about the disheartening things =/

telll me what i can do please. ): hai.....

i really wannnna tell u how i feeel so badly, but i don wanna lose you.

so i think i shouldn't say anything and treat you better.

i'm not in the moood to blog about it now.

how long do we hear i love you?

finally yesterday got to see my dearest boy :D

try not seeing ur love one for a weeeek. omfg terrrible!

& it isin't something sweeet to do so(:

ytd dearie came compass point to meet my family den

my mother, dearie, alvin and i took cab home! & HOR

i know alvin like him alot ^^ keep on telling dearie that his house

alot of toys =,= ahhhh, how cute.

and i seriously swear at that point of time i just hoped that everything

won't change. horhor dearie? =)

after that at home play piano and hes learning some cute songs!

HAHAHAHA *laughs*

ard 1++ went fishing(prawns) with dad,mom,dearie and zhen's family.

ard2+ his friends came and i felt so damm bored lah!

*gahs* andand i know that darling dammm tired.

hes darn tired ard 4 plus lah! see his face very fierce sio don't even

dare to talk to him.

den 5am dad drive him home. seeeeeee my dad<3>

but yea, his face still cannot make it.

make me irritated at times.

i love you more.

you may not realise it. but yea, it has been a weeek.

& i hope there will be more to go ^^

hmmmmm, it has been the 6th torturing day since i last

seeen my dearie. && I MISS & LOVEEE HIM LAH.

haiyo! tomorrow still cannot see him seh. must wait till sat =/

all these exam days are just fucking shit. @#^*#&$!

how i wish that i could just skip this part of my life, schooing

without those scary exams(:

today had a day with my darling girlfriend and my dearmother! <3

hmmmm, suddenly realise that our friendship might

not be as strong as i think how it should be.

u should have seee clearly that i'm the one asking u out

ALL THE TIME. i'm starting to feel irritated & neglected.

after lots of thinking, my conclusion is u're closer to her.

& i won't ask you out anymore.

how our friendship shall be now depends on you already girl.

feeeling abit of the disappointment. &everytime on our anni

i wrote for you things wad did u contribute girl?

i didnt ask for anything just more of the time with me.difficult for you?

i don't wanna it to end. but.......... hai. everything changed.

and MOTHER'S day coming monday shall be a day with her :D

i may show some attitude sometimes lah, i apologise

but its because i care, not any other thing!

i'm spending more and more money and i have no idea why!

i'm missing you here.

thats always how relationship ends; the ending of everything.

=/ sometimes i seriously hope that someone would be in my shoes

and know how i feel. but no one does. sometimes i reallyreally

wonder if u're me how would you feel & what would u do.

i really want to know. because it does cause an impact on me & answer

for all my doubts. i hope i did not place my trust a wrong

way in you! u're trusted 101% ^^

i didn't ask for anything all i ask for is devotion.

& i seriously hope it won't be a short one

or a fling causecause, i'm serious about you.really *

Its you that made me feeel love for the second time,

its you that made me feel jealous again,

its you that made me forget the past,

and its also you that i feeeel a strong love for now.

you shall be the 1st and the last i'll wait for at all the mrt stations

standing on the high heels!

&& i shall apologise for eveything before hand in case

i can't keep it anymore bcos i know i may just blurt it all out.

i've a bad temper and i'm narrow minded ):

but i'm all jealous because i loveee you! not controlling you

alrights! =D

i don't wanna be one of the trend couples.

"if i like you i'll be with you BUT when i see someone better

i shall dumo you and leave you at the most find someone

else only wad, no problem for me one lah."

I DON'T WANT I DON'T WANT!

please everybody. every relationship holds ITS NOT A FLING.

and u guys should know better that girls have a vulnerable heart.

i said before its the moments that counts not the duration.

but now i wonder..................

u're my everything.

*gah* sorry for the late update! was busy with homeworks and tuition.

went to watch spider man 3 with hubbbbbby & my parents

on 5th march midnight :D the show dammm nice lah!

but again we landed on the first row. 2 yrs back we watched spiderman

2 and got the first row too! *rahhhh* dumb.

i want to intro yuzhen to victor & dearie say can one!

it's the second day i didn't see him already &&&&&&&

DAMMM I'M MISSSING YOU LAH DEARIE!

for you for you mr poh, :D

today woke up at 11am for tuition and i'm dammmm moodless

cause i slept at 5am ytd night playing majiong.

omgggg =/ and my mother still owes me money for losing okay! ^^

the days that shes not working, i realise that she really

does dotes on me alot. except for the quarreling thing just now lah~

=,= and peeps, for the anti-eileen friendster thing,

just stop caring lah. hate me for all they want i seriously

can't bother. (:

i love woopeixin!

why don't u try understanding how i'll feel?

enough, i won't say too much.

i love my dearieeee wooooo :D

yay! if nothing crops up tomorrow it will be a bonding day again ^^

& thanks to you darling, u made me forget my unhappy past.

this is the second time i'm so sure about love!

*gahgahgah* anddddd i'm serious.

so u better don make me sad/lie to me/zaosai.

i may just cry my lungs out~ =/

but trust is what i have now (: so don't worrry boy!

please don see this post so shy lah~

shit! today wanted to ask keesiang to ahem* eugenia.

but yea u know, hes just too dumb.

if u get to see this post lah i wanna tell u that my darling

girlfriend's a goood one, so don't let the chance slip off!

HEHEHE.

today's a boring day lah BUT

no worries my parents should be watching spiderman3

at cine with me tomorrow. ohhh u see how lovely

our small little family are. :D

wonder what hes doing didnt reply my messages! *roars*

baby! i love you(:

hello, my heart is there please do not take it as and when u like.
cause i ain't the same! understand? %&$%!#@

here comes a big mamaa staying at home for a period of time.

& my days gonna suck a big time. ):

today maths paper one overall i think still alright lah can pass.

but for geog, HAHA DIE LAH~ i see the paper sian already

went to sleep for an hour 15mins wake up last 15mins

anyhow write answers. omfg now i'm worrrying!

i so so shouldnt have done that! =/

so u guys should know combined humans sucks =,=

ahaha! and i think i needa say a sorry to my darling girlfriend

she must be bored to death ytd!

and my dearie came to my house till 11pm! *yays*

hmmmmm, tmr schooling day again!

and the mye continues next wednesday.

i duno wtf my sch is doing lah stupid seh stop the exams halfway =,=

lol~ today went to eat sushi with my darling parents and my girl!

dammmmm full. & i admit now that my mother's a pig.

LOL. she can't seems to feeel full.

morever, shes still my cute little fierce mother(:

hey i misss you :DD

love

i posted this for the sake of clearing the prob out in a

PROPER MANNER.

hello people~, hate me or like me i don't care but stop polluting my blog.

cause i don't need all ur dirty comments. so u better fcuk off

before i really gets angry and get the hell out of you.

ahaaaa and scolding fcuk off doesn't means i wanna fcuk you.

can you be more realistic? how can i fcuk you when u're not

even putting ur name on the tags? scared isit?

& i seriously discriminate those lowly assholes dirtying

my tagboard without their highly protected names.

ehhhhh u got balls or nehneh please put ur name lah, scared wad sio

dare to tag don't dare to admit. come out say lah~

oh yah, and my pictures why do you need to care so much?

haha please let me see ur name and pictures first den comment

whether or not my picture is disgusting alrights?

grow up will you? ur actions are just telling ppl that u're such a

useless person & someone not even proud of ur own name.

girl/boy, tag with pride please don't throw those kind passer-bys face!

if u're really that daring, tell me ur number let me call you.

thankyou.

okay! enough of those clearing of prob in a proper manner.

& i hope the person will tell me who he/she is. =)

gah* bought contact lens today spent another 20dollars!

and i love my darling girlfriend for buying me the contact lens

knowing that i don't have that much money to spend lah, ^^

see see seee i love you eugeniadarling!

especially for joelyn : cutie! don't think about it anymore.

i'll be there for you alrights! <33>

okay i think my chinese improved already~! cause first time i'm soooo

confident in my chinese exams. but for social studies,

*yawns* i'll just wait for the U grade (:

and yay-yay tomoro no sch! and i want to study with dearie

but dunoooo go where =/

mother will not be working for a month or so. die lah!!

no more of the late-sneaking-home ):

i miss the bondings ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

hey, its my life get it?

i live it MY way, not yours.

you know what? girl, i won't even care how u think of me.

ahahaa. i don't even give a fcuk* lah,

LOL. ytd english mye paper. i think its quite easy leh.

*grins* && i wanna get good results for english paper! my favourite

subject(: hmmmm den after the paper went to serve

the 2 dammmm hrs of detention, sit there do nothing =/

after that took 28 home. den gahgahgah*

2 hrs later went to eugenia's so called "birthday party" i suppose?

:D although abit sian lah, but still i enjoy my friends company.

played some stupid games at her house.

i lick ppl's leg and shoe =,= darn.

den went to simei slack till 1++ my sweeetdad came

to fetch me and limin mother home! =)

and i'm super tired! & i woke up at 2pm today :DDD

sorry but i do admit i'm a pig

sometimes*LAUGHS*

omg omg omg dieeeeeeeeee. monday got chinese and ss paper.

die lah, i got this feeeling that i'm going to flunk

my maths, science and many many more! )'=

okay these few days i'm seriously broke, first in my lifetime.

&&&&& so sorry! i'm lazy to update my blog everyday.^^

pictures after exams! <3

please don't you try me.

cause i'll never let you off asshole.

i love you i love you & i love you lah! ):

and why the fcuk* am i jealous
huh. diediedie =/

CANNOT CANNOT!

haha i think i've got a fragile heart !^@#&@#

but no matter wad, i must be a understanding person.
horhor? (: i can ren one! gahgahgah*

but please don go overboard cause i may not take it )':

& i'm trying not to reply alot of comments already.

but nvm lah.. =/

today spent 100+++ on eugenia's birthday present

shit lah! i'm fcuking broke le.

AIYA I STILL CANT GET THE THING OUT OF MY MIND

FCUK JEALOUSY LAH )=

i very sad lah idiot!

can u please stop that? )'=

*cries*

insecured;

love is total shit, love isin't sweet, love is arse, love is everything

love is fcuking* confusing, love isin't commiting,

love is one sided, love is unconditional, love is me! *grrrrrrrrrrrr*

): i'm no-no flirt/player! @##$@%$

& i'm dammmm fcuking* serious lah.

i just found out that, i don't understand why some couples can live

happily for sucha long period of time.

dammmm jealous! ^^ specially for jolene :

ahJO , its time to let go girl.. do not hold on to him anymore.

he isin't worth of ur anything.

get what i mean? love isin't the duration girl, its the moments!

cheeer up alrights! :)

& i'm losing all the confidence in relationships. =/

oh ya.. my grandma's sis passed away today 1.28am.

i was there to catch the last glance of her. )'=

my loved ones! please take good care of ur health yea,

sickness = crazy! GAHGAHGAH*

next fri english exams already. and i haven't even started

opening any of my books.

i think i'll just flunk everything this time. hopefully not ):

i may just start biting
myself again dammmm stress of

EVERYTHING

& i don't feeel like telling people around me

cause there are enough problems for them to handle.

tomoro needa go to the stupid coffeeshop to help out again.

waste of my time =,=

after all the tough exams, well girlfriends it shall be our bonding

time. i know there are some misunderstanding

mayb we don't understand each another.

things will get better yea, no more attitude problems pls!

& nothing you do can change my mind

i love you.

FCUK LAH! today wake up my first thought was..

I DIDNT WANT TO GO TO SCH LAH!

but i have to ): so i asked eugenia to meet me for mac

we 8 den reach sch.

suay suay she didnt bring her card which the deadline is ytd

den our form tcher called her mum actually for the card.

but tcher told her mum that she was not in sch yet.

den the mum kept calling eugenia when we're still in mac.

she panic den i ask her go sch first i walk there alone.

DEN THE MUM CALLED ME.

&& I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS HER NUMBER.

)= and fcuk i lied to her mum,to cover up for eugenia.

now her mum dammm angry of me lah!

and she even asked eugenia to stay away from me.

i was like =,= wtf?!?! *ARRGHGHGHGH*

we're just late for the assembly we didnt skip any classes

EXCUSE ME?!

can you please understand? dammmmmmmmmm.

i went home immediatly after sch, took a short nap.

TAADA i went for piano!

ya de ya de.. den saw a few friends .

tmr got sports day! and i'm in for tally match! die die die.

i just receive a call.

my grandma's sis can't make it already. )=

i want you

have you ever wonderered, if one day someone close

to you is struggling with her illness

& u can't do anything but to see her suffer

through the last journey of her life? )=

*cries* just came back from kk hospital,

went to visit my grandma's sister. i still rmb

the days when she gave in to me, dote on me and

played with me. && i will not forget those heartening

memories.

shes only 53.. why must god take her away?

thinking back, now i see how vulnerable life is.

not everybody gets to live healthily.

so all the more fortunate ppl like us should

really learn how to cherish things ard us. =/

can i not have anymore relatives/loved ones

suffering/dying of cancer?!!

CANCER = KILLER.

*arghhhhhhh* tmr i have school! but i really

can't get these out of my mind.

okokay *stop*

YAY! TMR BAKING COOKIES WITH DARLING GIRLFRIEND,

MARMIE, PPPDEARIE && FRIENDS.

hope everything goes smoothly. (:

i have no idea why i'm having moodswings these

few days =[

; someone tell me what is life

birth , old , sufferings & dying?

just realised that capricorn doesn't fools ard. they are serious beings.

=/ dammm i'm so bored till i go ard the internet searching info

on capricorn = meme! :D

ya lah, thats wad girls do when they gets tooo bored.

went to shop ard today after school. i have to stop shopping!

i'm dammm broke now, & i think i've spent enough, especially

/particularly this year.

have no idea why. mayb i've grown up! though i still wanna buy

the guess wallet lah! but not for now :)

today had sexuality classes( different frm SEX)

somehow, someone starts mentioning about things that happen

to me last year. teacher requested me to share with the class.

& it seriously doesn't feels good to be in an "abusive" relationship.

thinking back, i seriously think at that point of time,

i'm just too blinded by love to even protect myself.

sharing it with the whole class with experience i felt funny.

somehow i hold back some tears.
):

*roars* enough of those gahgahgah,

i seriously have something to mention to my close friends.

in particular, my 5 other girls in my class.

sometimes i realise that our friendship only starts when one of you

are hurt by another.

i have no idea why. mayb it gonna be like that for the next 2

years or so?

our friendship isin't strong girls,

however eugenia is different for the past 2yr+ she had NEVER

leave me despite my bad habbits & girl i really cherish you!@!

nobody can spoil our friendship yea :D

& definately not you bitch,

exams are staring.. english mye starts on 27th apr

mye will end ard 7th of may & i'll be FREE!

;dear one, i'll be there for you.

dammmmmmmm fcuk it.

i rotted at home for today! AHHHH my tuition teacher

forgotten bout the the time we agreed on,

she came at 10AM instead of 11AM

gahgahgah. & end up i'm tired and moooodless =/

AND MY STUPID/DUMB/ASS mother

don't let me out today! wake up only keeep on kpkb

non-stop.

thats the reason why i always hated mum.

den my darlinggirlfriend came my house to accompany me.

I THANK GOD FOR THE DAYS WITH HER.

:DD

tmr i wanna go sing

but i guesss we'll make some changes.

;will you love me like the way i love you?

i lovemypeeps.

god dammm it! *roars*

woke up at 8 today for the spca flag day.

dumb asss. 9am-12pm, HOW TO FIND PPL DONATE LAH!

abit stupid though,

after that we sian already headed for

carls jr for breakfast! ^^

OKAY I ADMIT THAT THE BURGER IS BIG

& may contains 1000calories =,=

shouldn't have eat that!

den after that ya de ya de take mrt back to tampines

reached homee get ready ard 3+

get out of house le.

reached orchard at 4.05pm

WAITED FOR THAT MRPOHPEIPEI FOR AN HOUR.

till 5.10 )=

shop&shop ard and dammmm, i didnt buy anything!

>.< OH YA XUEQI AND SHARON

ARE SOME V.CUTE PEEPS.

okokay i shall try my best to update everyday(:

arghhh shit lah monday got geog test ):

*rings*

PLEASE WAKE UP AND STUDY.

MISSES~

so loong since i update!

so long since i last update lah!

had beeeeeeen quite busy lately & most of all very lazy! :D

MYE are coming!

i've to really got to work hard.

hadn't been listening to classes lately. LOL!

just cant seems to get myself concentrated in maths.

i hate maths! *gahgahgah*

AND YES. TMR TO SPCA FLAG DAY.

hopefully everything will turn out fine. (:

shall update again!

PICTURES COMING !~

nabeh lah u. think u so clever know anything ah.

PCB

write there let who see sia?

show everyone for wad.

huh? i hate ppl who complain. pls stop acting

as though u're so innocent lo.

and you pls stop accusing ppl lah hor.

think u very clever den tell everyone about me lah.

trust wrong person ur mama head lah.

LOL.

WASTING MY TIME =/

okay lah. enough of all those scolding .

:D okay later i'm going with out with my deargirlfriend.

i wanna buy lots of clothes okay!

alalalalla i needa go! (:

&i can live without you,

me and stephsteph!
walaoeh! why sally's face likethat?!
the verylovable alden! <3 WOAH AFTER MAKEUP.

ahhhhhh!

can anyone tell me why is loveeee so confusing?!

i'm confused confused confused.

u see ahhhh why isit always the ladies

the ones whom go through all those crying blahblahblah? =/

AIYOOOOOOO.

hahahaa okay back to those happy topics.

ytd went rollerblading with eugenia and deserie.

okay! now i admit that all of us are rollerblading experts

EXCEPT FOR DESERIE!

we had a hard time coaching her okay! but indeed,

there are some improvements. thanks to coach eugenia

and EILEEEEEEN. lalalalalalaahhhh :D

and oh yah! the rollerblading shop guy!

HES A EXACT REPLICA OF AHMAD OKAY!

luckily he called to inform me that i haven retrieve

my ezlink card! so kind of him(:

thankssss alot yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

): and my face is swollen. ugly siolx (nah eugenia)

I GONNNNA SUCK A BIG TIME TMR.

yayayay tmr watching night in the museum with

DAR! :] okay lah i'm outdated CAN.

to eugeniabestahgirlfriend : halo dearie i loveee you!

just wanna say thanks for being with me.

i appreciate every single thing u do. those moments

u do stupid thing just to make me laughhhhh :D

PIG HEAD.

goshhhh i can't slim down ):

hey! i have totally forgotten bout my blogggg.

okay laa. so long didn't update already.

shall update a longer one today. siannnssss

school reopen already. knew it long ago that our grp of

girls will have some conflicts.

lets just continue the update from 2 days ago;

had a wonderful CO concert at esplanade,

and came to realise that i actually cherish all the times

with my erhu seniors recently(:

they're the ones that cheeered me up when i'm feeling down,

although we're always talking nonsense lah!

after the CO concert met up with eugenia and her family.

her dad is so sweet to give us a lift to parkway

knowing that we are in rush of time(:

reached parkway and thought we're only meeting

boony and lam but i'm so wrongwrongxx!

theres like a huge grp of them there lah! walao eh!

assssessssss. den we decided to eat fish&Co.

boooonnnnny pangseh me! left eugenia me and lam ):

then theres this malay girl named mariam(sorry if i spelled wrongly)

came and join us.

and dammmmmmmm, i felt so awkward la!

den went to bowl with them(:

after that rush homeeeeesweethomeeeeee in a cabby!

weeeeeeeees. ytd had a painful legggg.

end up walking like a bai ka in schooool.

all of them who saw me laugh at me. ASSSHOLEEEEEE.

ARGHHHHHH.

okaokayy i know i'm short

& FAT. ):

my blog is like so dead now. (:

think its because of the period of time for e post.

now i finally realise how days without the basterd

can be so happy. now i know,

i totally forgotten about him :D!

cheeeeeers for me! well, tomoro i'm going korea.

and special thanks to

Eugenia des gary kianloon lincoln and zhangyong

( did i get the correct spelling?)

for supporting me in the concert!

ya and really thanks eugenia and des for giving me

a wonderful and memorable day b4

i'm going to korea. hehehehe.

today we went to town. shop here and there

den went to fareast bought some goldearrings :]

i'll be away frm 12th to 20th

i'll miss my #1girlfriends! moack((((:

won't be blogging for quite a period of time

cause i'm having a class chalet frm 21st-23rd :D

ohya ytd was a good day to be mentioned!

we had fun celebrating kianloon's birthday

although we celebrate it in a coffeeshop,

but its a unique one. we played with cream!

some idiots G wipe the cream on my face. damm it (=

starting to love my friends more and more.

and u, don ever try me u bitch.

well those who wanna exchange xmas gift

pls give me e sms. 94517606(:

heheheh :D and my birthday is coming! its making me excited.

wanna have a good time with my girlfriendsdarlings.

hookay enough of the posting abit tired :]

sleeeeep! loveeeee. <3