whatever i do, i'm always the one in the wrong.

in your heart, never am i a goood, respectful or a good d_______

yea i'm not your d_______ you don't have a d_______ like me.

oh yea you treat me well? bought me everything i liked?

it has got nothing to do with the relationship between us.

why always got so worked up over small little things?

why does it always have to end up the same?

why can't u just be like d__ who knows how to talk

things over to me nicely even before trying to use his hands?

why are you so unreasonable? why are you so not understanding?

fancy you being my m_____. and i swear i really

hated yesterday. nothing's gonna make me forget what

you did to my phone. why can't you just fuckingly

listen to me. yeayea everything u do is right.

your hands are painful. mine's not mine's not okay?

and whether or not i want to attend school is really

non of your business. i love school so do you have any

problems with it? i'm really getting sick of this h___

of mine. you people will see sometime i'll go crazy

and it'll be time i'll not be h___ and leave for good.

words from me to you people,

Jolene loke: girl uh, u always say i don't love you!

but thats what you think luh actually deep down in my heart

u do matters alot to me. There are times when

i'm really down and didn't know what to do whos there

to help and cheer me up? yes, youuuuuuuu.

i thank god theres you with me dear.

& don't think too much hokay! & u're love :D

Zazilah: girlfriend! haaaaaaaaas who usually accompany

me and make me real happy without any worries?

of course its you lah! i rmb times when we quarrelled

over small lil things. but i'm sure it didnt hurt our

friendship at all. & all the times being with me,

big thanks to you! (;

rowell wifey: girl, although we had not know each other

for long but i really feel the friendship between us.

haaaas, everytime i quarrel with him whos the one

cheering me up and biting me?! YOU LAH!

laughs. See! such a good friend i've got. right? (:

i know u're still feeling upset but i do really hope u'll

not think about it anymore. just like how u told me*

Love Laopo,

Joelyn & Xijie : at times when i'm feeling frustrated and down

u both did crack funny jokes just to make me laugh.

although this year we started to get closer but i really

love times spent with you people.

now both of you are busy studying for exams.

big luck for you! love yea (:

Randolph: hey bitchhhhhh , 3 years of friendship really didnt

went down the drain. i enjoyed crapping with you.

and u really showed me how things work in another

way. i hope that u'll not break your fragile heart anymore!

and yes bitch u're love !

Wanzhuang & Xuanhui: girls uh, no more quarrels hokay?

see life's so much better without those quarrelings!

HAHA, u're both my listeners. whenever i have problems

be it a small or a big one the both of u never fail

to lend me a listening ear and a mouth with jokes.

And And there're people i miss!

wanjoo yanling amelia benji shermaine xueqi simun rowell

yuzhen adeline irene and many more.

those not mentioned are not forgotton too.

thanks you people. this is <3!

okay dear readers, stop huh-ing. (:

cause i'm really in my school's chinese orchestra

&& i'm in the erhu section. suprising uh?

hokayyyy and i hope u people won't spot me in the photo.

Laughs. oh yah these few days had been prety warm

so dear girlfriends/friends please take care and

drink more water alrights! :D

awww shit, i think i'll fail my EOY exams luh.

because i just realised that my brain had not been working

this year. i seriously don't know anything about

sec 3 work leh! maths = really driving me crazy

science = i don't know whats happening

english = the teacher really suck a big time

chinese = ahaaa learnt nothing?

my conclusion: sec 3 year is honeymoon~

tomoro we'll be having a school trip to macpherson

ite. please let tomoro be a windy day!

oh yahhhh girls! theres this very nice lip gloss

by canmake selling at only $12.90 at watsons

grab it now! (:

& i hope i'll find a goooood man,

update tomorrow~

tell me tell me am i too late to realise that.........

u actuallly still lingers in my mind? =/

let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go

its easier said den done.

and i don't think i'll make it because hey,

i really miss you.

i hope everyone who plays around with girls die.

especially youuuuuuu. and u're not great, u're a sucker.

u're forgotton but not forgiven ass.

get that into your mind boy. so what if u're more

that average looking? does that makes u a player?

stop all ur doings. u're big enough stop playing ur days away.

someday, i know u'll understand.

whos the asshole who created friendster?

without friendster i'm sure there won't be so many players

around. aiyah whatever luh.

hey people its a lovey-dovey red day today :D

yaynesss my favourite colour hokay. laughs.

its 2-15pm now and i'm still rottting at home darn lazyyyyy.

gonna meet my friends later for the fireworks!

oh yah, everyyear when theres fireworks, theres no...

boyfriend. LOL, girlfriends are important! ^^

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

okay, i'm fucking sick. someone help me please!

_l_ i hate days when i'm sick and no one's caring about it.

& i think i neeed someone with me now.

as i'm so bored at home! my phone isin't ringing for like

manymany days already. and who call that a phone!

*roars* okay i don't even understand what i'm complaining and

talking about now. hahaha i'm sick and bored like crazy.

so if u save me i'll be thankful and hug you.

LAUGHS. =,=

alright people please stop asking. let me say it once more,

i'm single and don't ask what happen.

now i really wonder whats the point of being in a relationship

when i know it wouldnt last at all! *roars loudly*

because things always ended the same way.

saying bye-bye / sayonara to each other. what the duck =,=

so whats the difference betweeen a 2 yrs relationship &

a 1 yr relationship? ans : broke off (same) Laughs.

girls, ladies, women or whatsoever please wake up~

we should know clearly things won't last for "forever",

stop being naive. & boysguysmen just what's wrong with

you people? stop saying i love you if you don't really mean it

and pleaseplease stop saying hey girl be with me

if you can't secure us with a long termed relationship.

guys please refrain from treating love and us like a

fool. we ain't fools, we're growing ladies-to-be (:

enough talking let me present my flaws to you people.

i'm stupid, lazy, dumb, ugly, selfish, irritating, sensitive,

noisy, possessive, bad tempered and&and nosey~

hokayyyy. too bad this is just me. Laughs.

but this is really shit luh. i'm efffing bored at this time.

*pouts* ahhh shit okay.

&& i believe someday sometime i'll feel loved and love

again right? but i think being lesbian is cool :D

okay people~ sorted things out and i'm

single again (:

schooling suck. especially on days when u're really tired

and mooody =/

yea i totally agree friends are the most important.

Laughs. this few i hadn't beeen feeling happy thanks people like

yanling, rowell, wanjoo, joelyn, jolene, zilah, wanzhuang,

xinhui, xuanhui and eugenia although shes away for OBS.

almost everything didnt go well for me..

many days since i last contacted you. seriously hope

everything's doing well for you.

people, love's a total bitch. unless you really find someone

who really love you. & its difficult.

now i'm like so lack of confidence in relationships already.

but yea i hope i'll get over all these sad things soon.

now i don't even understand our situation. Laughs.

pleaseeeee no more flings ):

school suck & everything suck _l_

Laughs, whatever lahhhh.

big questions running & running round my heart,

many many do's , don'ts, please & cans .

boy, do you still love me?

do u still want to be with me?

do u think that i'm boring?

do i make a sensitive girlfriend?

do you think of me?

do you miss me?

do you still want me?

do you remember me?

boy, don't leave me.

please love me.

please be with me

please don't get sick of me.

please don't think that i'm lousy.

please miss me.

please remember me.

please think of me.

ohh boyboyboy, this is for you.

hubbbbbbbbbbbbbbb, we've beeen together for going threecutemonths.

although we stay far away, but i've never thought of giving up.

i understand feelings do fade. but mine didnt. i swear. although friendster

created manymany probs for us. but everytime we managed to talkthings out.

these few days we hadn't been contacting each other very much.

in the beginning i'm so worried, worried that things gonna change

and might not be the same anymore. i bet u didnt know i'm worried..

but u know i do treat this relationship seriously. i don't want us

to end up like some idiots who plays ard and den forget abt the past and

each other. i've really a question to ask. do u treat us seriously? i'm really

scared. scared that u didnt care. 2 weeeks and a day since i last met you.

i'm really missing your everything badly. although u're a boyfriend who

doesn't say much, but i know deep down yea u do care.

and dear, remember how we met? = friendster.

i added u first cause u looked cute. den came on msn, sms on 2/14

den met up on 3/17 den drag on and *tadar* tgt on 3rd or may. i still

remember the times when we just met. we'll sms throughout the night..

u'll crap with me... and disturb me :D i've beeen like some toot-ers looking

at the past messages u've sent me. they're really so sweeet, cute

and really memorable. and yea not forgetting those testis.

although its abit different now but yea i don't want to think so much.

cause i don't wanna be some really petty and sensitive girls. i want

to bethe girl u once really love and someone whom u won't forget.

i've got so so much to tell you. but we just can't have the chance to see

each other recently. i know u're busy with ur sch work. so i shan't pester

you out with me. school'd important so do i. i really miss you i really do.

i wanna see you. oh yea byyyy, i love those times when u came my house to

stay over. spiderman3, fishing, and dinner with my family.

they're so so unforgettable. u're the first boyfriend i've brought home

so please my dear god let this be a lasting one. because foever never

exist. i love you . and everything never ever change.

attached on o3/o5/o7.

i'm not a fool and i don't want to be your fool.

i'm not stupid not to notice anything

i don't really understand what u're doing now.

but by my instinct, i know

something is very wrong right now.

u don't love me that much anymore.

i'm not so stupid not to realise it. its obvious.

just tell me u don't wanna be with me.

i will let go, can be forgiven, but u can't be forgotton.

understand what i mean?

i don't understand what i've done wrong.

did i do anything wrong? not treating you well?

not giving u space? not letting u do the things u like?

or purely bcos i can't make u love me for long?

i don't know what you want.

u didnt reply my smses. didnt pick up my call

didnt call me and didnt even bother to care.

i'm tired. really tired. tired of being the one putting effort

to substain this relationship, tired being the one

who loves you more den u love me, being the one who's

trying to make u be with me. forget it,

i don't want you to think that i'm controlling & irritating.

if letting go is what u want me to do....... f only i can really do so ):

when i really can't bear to.

:'(

i exceptionally loveeeeeee this picture :D

although its the one and only u sent,

i do treasure it alot. <3333333333333333333

everything gonnna be alright, i'm going to forget abt you,

i'll remind myself i've to be independent bcos i don't have a bestfriend.

all i have right now is my boyfriend and my goood friends.

nothing more, nothing else.

if one day i'm going to lose either one again, i swear i'll brk down.

but yes, i have to learn how not to be pampered and dependent

bcos i must understand people do change for

themselves and not me.

stop asking what happpen because all these doesnt matters.

i'm reallly sad and disappointed though. but i gotta be strong.

i have to be happy just like how i am.

& i have to understand bestfriends/friends ain't gonnna

be forever. i can't be so naive. time to wake up and learn.

people tends to change, feeelings are meant to change too.

we're like that. realistic.

again and again i went to browse throughall my photo albums.

all that came flashing back are the times we spent.

wanted to delete everything but can't bring myself to do so.

i've changed, u've changed and we've changed.

we changed from the young girls to the matured ladies.

our thinking are different. we don't have any commmon.

facts. i have to accept facts. i'll learn how to to.

& you know i'm not going to live without anyone of you.

please )=

pictures kept.

Eugeniatanlimin;

girl, really thanks for being there. at this point of time

i've no rights to be angry or control u anymore.

i visited her blog. u guys seems happy taking the neo.

and u went home so late.

and i can recall u always tell me u have to be home early.

enough of these.

i've cried enough for you. be it you a girlfriend, or

in relationship. i'm tired really tired i wouldnt want

to care so much anymore now.

although i'm going to miss how u went crying with me,

joke with me, play with me, accompany me, stroke my hair,

console me, talk to me, hug me, laugh with me,

shop with me, be with me and love me.

but these will not matter to me anymore. i'm so sick

this time i'm not joking. i'll let go i really will.

i bet u have no idea how much i'm suffering these days.

i've changed really changed.

changed to someone whos going to keep everything

to herself. i'm not going to share it with anyone anymore.

and eugenia, u need not contact me after these

anymore. cause i won't be bothering about it.

i really had enough. i won't bother, i won't cry,

i won't be sad, i won't be happy and i won't be with you.

thanks for all those memories these 3 years babe.

stored deeep down.

i'm sad. )'=

aint this girl cute?! haaaaaaaas, met her at bus 28 with xuanhui & wz

i can't resist myself but to take a cute picture of her :D

AND YES I'M FUCKING ANGRY WITH YOU YES YOUUUU.

whats up with all those excuses saying u're the overall in charge

and u really really can't pon this friday's cca? ohhhhh i see.

u're the overall in charge can't pon

den whats with going out with her for shopping today? so impt?

please lahhhhh, i'm really not a fucking 3 years old kid for u to fool with.

there had beeen like 123456789 times u went out with her.

i knew it, its only i didnt want to confront u anymore. never.

ohhhhh please girl, u think u're the only one that cried?

when will u ever stop lying and fuckingly neglecting me?

aiyahhh please lahhh whatever can? nbbbb.

u're closer to her. please everybody can see. its pretty

x 100000 obvious. =,=

so please fuck this shit man. whatever u wanna do, so be it alrights.

& i haven beeen seeeing dear one for like one weeek alrdy ):

i missssssssssssssssssssssssssssss you.

Your Birthdate: December 31

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good. You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship. In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing. Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you. Your strength: Your dependability Your weakness: You hate being alone Your power color: Midnight blue Your power symbol: Shell Your power month: April

Your Birthdate: December 31

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

triple claps for today's weather pleaseeeeee.

stupid seh how i wish my 2.4 is today lahhhhh theres no sun,

theres no rain & most of all GOT WIND.

and yes finally we have more than half of our co members back for practice

for the last time. and so swayyyy can! before going for co i went home

to change guess wad, i got menses! %^@#*%! *roars*

fcuking irritating one lehhhh ): nowonder today i'm so worked up

over all the small little things.

tomoro i got my co performance at singapore conference hall. boreddd

from 4.45 at sch meet den go perform till 9+ lehhh reach home ard 10+ le.

and yayyyyy my dad will be going overseas from today till friday.

i'll have more freeedom then.

I'M BADLY MISSING MY BOYFRIEND NOW.

this is shit man. ):

LOL

i'm bloody sick nowadays ): flu suck.

didnt have a goood day today. i lent my chinese textbk

to one of my seniors and tcher wanted me to get it back

so i went up and asked for the boook. she didnt bring den what can i do?!

okay luh, ask me go buy boook no stock i lend from teacher got prob?

step in to class only shout at me )= *roars*

we quarrelled in class and gave each other attitude.

during recess kena caught again by dm for my attire.

whats wrong with the teachers huh?

my shirt is tucked in can?! den he want me to serve detention tmr.

please lah i'm so-not-going. think i'm very free to serve

ur detentions for nothing isit.

sorrry peeeps if i've shown any forms of attitude today,

i'm really sick and not in the moood to joke at all.

i'm so tired luh! 11.30 we have to leave the class and get ready for co.

went to get ready and we left school at ard 12.30.

and guess what? our schoool totallly spoil the whole rehearsal =,=

the first note actually came out earlier and its so obvious that we

can't continue with the beat so everyone stopped playing and

laugh. its a sarcastic laugh i supposed =/

ahaaa at that moment i wanted to dig a hole and just hide my head in lah~

today's performance is a disappointment everything went so wrong

the beat, the tune and the moood.

after we performed our conductress scold us outside the hall.

shes darn angry! i'm so disapppointed in myself too ):

tuesday is the actual concert alrdy and we're not ready at all!

people lets do this tgt again please!

prss co gold with honours. we're not going to lose to them!

tomoro will be going to simun's bbq with hubhubbbby.

*yays* time to see him again :D

manymany love!