lol, please change the friendship to relationship *laughs*

ya lah ya lah i'm misssssing someone can?

haaaaaaaaaa, these few days had beeen okay our new maths tcher

really really suck x 1000000. he talks like a duck, serious!

and his lessons were boring ain't as interesting as mrs tan's.

yesterday : *claps* for my mid year results, 40/42 in 3a2

percentage for overall = 51.3% =,= oh wow how goood.

my father had beeen nagging at me after since i showed him my results ):

have to buck up already i wouldn't want to be lousy.

today : a veryvery hot day! a time to say fuck to the weather.

afterschool cancelled detention den went to kbox with my girls.

Eugenia, xuanhui, wanzhuang & me :D

hmmmm, really spent a great time with u guys.

friends are no-doubt important in life! treasure them while you can.

ard 5.30 we took 31 back to school for the school syf celebration dinner.

thought we're going to have some goood food.

a big no-no! end up we had beehoon and some sandwiches. LOL

i did something good today. its raining after the dinner

hmmmm should be ard 8pm so banheng went home took an umbrella

and waited for wanzhuang just outside the school gate.

just imagine how sweeet luh~ wanzhuang please luh time to wake up.

xuanhui and me were like influencing wz and we're admiring them!

how sweeeet =/ *winks to wz* HAHAHA

and youuuuuuuu dumb dear one! 6 DAYS SINCE I LAST SEE YOU.

uhhhhh, nvm its okay i understand! ^^

boy i loveeee you the same!

& u should know ur words will meant the world to me :DDDD

hmmmm, this should be the first photo we took

since the day we started to get closer to each other.

should i say that friendships isin't strong or should i say

all friendships changes?

true enough, i didnt forget how we spend our girls night comforting

each another to sleep, cheer each other up, shop together

& spent wonderful memories together.

but sometimes yes friends do neglect how u feeel.

or should i put it this way, every being put themselves before

anyone? to my only limin mother : u know mother, i'm really

so thankful that u're always the one thats comforting me

& i'll never forget how u came frm ur house to my block

wanting to comfort me just because i was crying.

yes, those memories do hold a part of my heart. thanks loads....<3

sad to say, recently maybe u're having new friends so i may

not really matter to you that much anymore

or maybe just because of a simple reason ; drifting i suppose?

but yea thanks for everything mother, every small little things u do

are so being appreciated. really.

sorrrry been talking about it quite long le back to my post ^^

today... hmmmm, went to cine there for cousin's girls guide carnival.

so bored lahhhhh and u know the weather is not-so-good.

after that joelyn came to meet me cause got one of dear's friend

wanna see her(: den frm 2 ++ we wait till 5++ den go chinatown

for nothing. *laughs* although the atmosphere is not very good

at the beginning luh. yea eventually everything turn out well :D

went to amk with jo and dear meet his friends they see her le

go eat den we take cabbb home. darn ex @#$%*@#&%~!

rahhh* sch reopening le lehhhhh )= won't get to see you that much le

hubhubbbbbbb. but nvm lah weeekends = pohpei day ^^

EHHHHH I LOVE YOU LAH WOO PEI XIN.

*grins*

sorry lahhhh so long didnt blog already cause i'm pure lazy.

ehhhh ya, ytd was my dear one 17th birthday and 4 months since i FIRST

smsed him :D woahhh time do really flies i didnt even know i met him like

so long already lah~ *laughs*

verybigwishesfromwifey for his birthday :

hahahahaha, for him to grow a lil wee bit fattter. LOL

to have goood health ! important*

to excel in his poly studies.

ehhhhh last but not least, last long. heheheh

okay lah, some lame wishes but yes i did really wished for him =D

sorrrry & thankyou because ur birthday u still have to send me to simei.

talking about birthday, i still rmb how boring my birthday was last year

practically everyone is busy and they can't stay out late so end up

i had a very unmeaningful birthday last year )=

suckiest of all~

myyyy girlfriend came my house last night and we talked about her love*

haaaaaaaaaaas girl, u should know what to do already right? *winks*

today i'm a goood girl , i'm staying at home rotting with maggots all ard me =/

okay and i missssssss you lehhhhhhh ):

today went town with dearie ^^

yea & i enjoyed myself with all his jokes~ love you dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

okay back to my businesss.

i'm selling branded perfumes ladies; gucci, escada, chanel. guys; polo, boss, ck.

100% authenic. all 100ml ones selling at only $50.

the retailer clearing stock thats why.

please add me in msn if u're interested.

Eileen_bluesky@hotmail.com other than that i won't entertain unless u're my friend.

payment methods: pay by meetups or banktransfer.

goooods will arrive latest by 5 working days.

thanks.

i know u do read my blog.

but theres really somethings i can't keep it within me anymore.

yea its understandable u're having exams and those are really impt in life

but all i feel now is we're both just in named =/

we'll always just see each other once a weeek, talking lesser & lesser,

and yea u don't seems to bother.

yes, the word for this is drifting ain't u worried at all?

truly i am.....

but i'll still keep this love for u strong boy, a promise.

everyweek i'm saying this phrase over and over again

i do miss you very bady. you know?

sometimes i just wanted very badly to tell you how i feel but i know i can't

because i wouldn't want you to think i'm just fussing over small problems

don't want you to think that i'm not understanding.

if only love can be as sweet as how story books define love.

how great will it be?(:

& the love will stay*

:D

i've been staying at home these few days.

ask me out will you?

you don't need me. do you?

yes, life is fragile and very vulnerable.

so after what happened today, make me learn something.

we should all cherish people around us when we are able to

because u'll never know when he/she will be gone.

shes so beautiful and young

why did she have to die such an early age? its so unfair.

& when its only from the 4th floor!?! ):

although i never had a chance to go out with you

but yes i do miss ur everything now.

IN LOVING MEMORIES OF JASMINE.

& YES IT HAS BEEN A MONTH BABY :D

all those unhapppy times are stupid so lets just forget about them!

anddddddd many more to go dear one

& thanks for tolerating my *%#^$%^! attitude.

i tooooook a long time just to write that small & sweeeet lil card okay.

gahhhhh* today just went amk to pei my MRPOH ^^

anddddd i love him loads! *laughs*

something unpleasent happened today. i'm not feeeling great at all.
now i'm wondering...... am i at fault?
lol, back to square one. crying at public for one and a half hour or so.
because i'm not feeeling goood about it i replied 2 words means i'm
showing attitude? i swear i'm not. there were 2 couples there and its an odd number
i felt so left out. =/
nvm about that.. but ur words add to my sadness.
maybe i'm being too sensitive like what u've said before.
but i tried to give in too, didnt i?
i was given two choices.
number 1: leave you alone
number 2: go home and see how it goes.
i choosed number 2.
i didnt want to give up this relationship at all my dear.
maybe what u think is u have many choices and i'm not ur first priority.
but i'm really serioud about it.
no matter what,
i will & still love you as much as how i did.

i neeed you. ):

sorrry people but i really got nothing better to do when its 4.42 so...

girls normally do stupid surveys :D especially ppl like me. LOL

survey 1

1.Would you kiss the last person youkissed again?- NO i won't.

3.Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?- yes

4.how long does the hurt last?- for months =/

5. Are you happier single or in arelationship?- depends.

6.Have you ever cheated on someone?- no

7.Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?- true or dare counted? lol

8.Have you ever had your heart broken?- YES

9.have you ever broken someone'sheart?- shld be..

10.Talk to any of your exes?- recently no.

11.If you could go back in time andchange things, would you?- slimmer? ^^

12.Think any of your exes feel the same?- didnt think of it.

13.Do you believe that you are a goodgirlfriend/boyfriend?- ask him please(:

14.Have you been in an abusiverelationship?- yes =/

15.Do you believe everyone deserves asecond chance?- YES.

16.Do you believe in love at firstsight?- yes

17.Do you want to get married?- sure(:

18.has anyone ever told you theywanted to marry you?- no

19.Ever liked someone else's boyfriendor girlfriend?- no

20.Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?- i swear, yes.

survey 2

Shortest relationship:>> primary sch time. few days lol,

-Longest relationship:>> 11months?

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends havetold you that they love you?>> 3

-Have you ever thought that you weregoing to marry the person?>> dreamt

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?>> yes.

-What is your favorite thing about the opposite>> the soft, caring , loving & sweeet side(:

-Have you ever broken someone's heart?>> think so?

-Ever dated two people at once?>> never will i.

-Do you have something to say to anyof your exes?>> thanks.

-Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?>> out of the point(:

survey 3

1.Fell in love= serious one 13.

2. Lost someone close to you= when i'm 14.

3. Drank alcohol= lol, 13

4. Smoked= i don't smoke ^^

5. Got kissed= lol, 13

6. Went to the hospital= 6? don't rmb..

7. Got your heart broken?= 14 *gahs*

8. Had a date?= 13 =D

9. Had a boyfriend?= puppy love counted? 12(:

11. held hands?= 13

12. Got a job= never.

13. hugged?= 13

14. Rode the city bus alone?= 12? don't rmb..

15. told someone u loved him/her?= gahhhh still... 14

16. Snuck out of the house= 14

17. drunk?= 14+ ewwww

18. How old are you now?= i'll be 15 after 12/31 no worries(:

done with the 3 surveys! :D

omg its 5.14am now and i'm still fcking awake.

shall post at night after i come back from shopping ~

its finally a SUNDAY yesterday :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

&& i waited so long lah! ): but nevermind i got to seee my dearest already(:

ytd went to watch pirates of the carribean. its a very long movie

and i don't really understand the movie lah~

after watching the movie my momma sunddenly called me

and reminded me to buy a cake for my auntie cause its her birthday!

omfg i totally forgot about it.

den went to breadtalk buy a $28 cake @$(@$%&&*@

den hor dearie acccompany me to my grandpa's coffeeshop ^^

i bet hes veryvery full! :DDDDDDDDDDD

yay baobao&feifei already darling. (:

hmmmmmmmm, after the small celebration took cab with aunt

cousins and dearie home.

i need you.

now i feeeel that girlfriends still the best. (: thanks for the times babes.

hmmmm i may be rude to you sometimes but deeep down

u guys are important in my life! <33

went sentosa today for the volleyball thingy its hot there @#%*@%^!

haaaaaaaaaa luckily saw kaixiang there he gave me free foood

if not i may starve to death. eugenia ate mine too~ =DD

beeeen 4 days++ since i last see you. i misssss you badly!

but aiya nvm lah, hahaha(:

not really in the moood to blog sorrry.

i'm waiting for sundayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ^^

i cry myself out and sing.

after so many experience in friends and trying to learn more about guys

my conclusion is : sometimes guys just can't be bothered by small little things

while girls always get so irritated, bothered, jealous & fucked up

by all those "small little things" guys think in their way! * roars*

actually, girls are veryvery easy to understand all u have to do is be sweeet, caring

& understanding to us thats all. u have to know that ALL THE GIRLS

IN THE EARTH DO GET BOTHERED OR JEALOUS OVER SMALL THINGS.

try finding other girls, its all the same :D scary isin't it?

for me its simple. i need 3 big things.
FIRST: UNDERSTANDING

haaaaaaaa i have a veryverysuper bad temper! but recently i have

no idea why i coooled down seriously ALOT after being with mr woo because

he had beeeen training my patience in almost everything. thankyou dearie (:

but sometimes i seriously can't stand & there my temper will go again

i'll be mean and not understanding at all but you have to understand alright!

cause i seriously don't wannna quarrel with you as much as how much i quarreled with my ex.

SECONDLY: CARING

please take note of this sentence people :D

NO MATTER WHAT ALL THE GUYS SHOULD DOTE ON THEIR GIRL

its the rule of the game. haaaaaaaaaa we can really seee the smalll little things.

even playing with our hair and holding us do make us alot happier trust me ^^

and when we say that we are sick/not feeling well/feeling down

the keyword is ask a WHY and start caring. because its really ur business!

personally i would prefer ppl to care too much rather than not caring at all.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST: DEVOTION

heyyyyyy! devotion is a big word okay. try loving the same old person for 2yrs

i know i know its boring, tiring, and difficult for you guys. BUT

would u chooose someone u've work hard to understand and love for 2 yrs or someone

u just met not long ago? or just because the new one may loook more appealing to you?

it takes two hands to clap for a relationship to last.

sooooooooooooo both parties must be able to resist the temptations*

for devotion, i'll know if its just a crush or really a love. no worries =DD

&& no mattter what, i'll try my very best

just to be with you. (:

sorrrry yea today not at home can't post any pictures.

so i shall just talk about the past few days :D

all i can remember is... ytd my dear one came my house at 2am(:

ask him come accompany me end up he acccompany me for that 1hr playing o2jam

den my mother ask me go watch the tv programme for abt 5 mins only

den went back to my rooom he sleeeping soundly on my piano cover =,=

gah* how cute my dearie was lah! :DDDDDDDDD

since cab fare got midnight charge so ex my mother just let him stay over

for the night ^^ hahaaaa! papa can't stop mama~

*ROARS* today morning i woke up at 10am thought dear one

wanna go home ask him wake up all he reply was "umm still early"

seee how troublesome guys can get! nevertheless, i still love you hubbby! ^^

LOL. he woke up ard 2 i think... den i quickly got ready & went amk with him.

&& i enjoy the days with you dear<3>

andddddddd i can't wait for 3 weeeks to see you lei darling ):

sometimes i really do wonder what can i do to make you happy

when everything doesn't seeems to be appreciated.

is that what we term as "love" huh?

)= i really want to make you feeel happy and loved .......

*gah* nvm

okay lets drop that topic :DDDDDDDDDD

i don't wanna think of disheartening things i wanna be happy.

today went to sing with friends from 2 -6 (:

had fun! && i misss all my primary school mates!

especially people like shermaine, litong, jingwen ++++

okay toooo bad i'm still thinking about the disheartening things =/

telll me what i can do please. ): hai.....

i really wannnna tell u how i feeel so badly, but i don wanna lose you.

so i think i shouldn't say anything and treat you better.

i'm not in the moood to blog about it now.

how long do we hear i love you?

finally yesterday got to see my dearest boy :D

try not seeing ur love one for a weeeek. omfg terrrible!

& it isin't something sweeet to do so(:

ytd dearie came compass point to meet my family den

my mother, dearie, alvin and i took cab home! & HOR

i know alvin like him alot ^^ keep on telling dearie that his house

alot of toys =,= ahhhh, how cute.

and i seriously swear at that point of time i just hoped that everything

won't change. horhor dearie? =)

after that at home play piano and hes learning some cute songs!

HAHAHAHA *laughs*

ard 1++ went fishing(prawns) with dad,mom,dearie and zhen's family.

ard2+ his friends came and i felt so damm bored lah!

*gahs* andand i know that darling dammm tired.

hes darn tired ard 4 plus lah! see his face very fierce sio don't even

dare to talk to him.

den 5am dad drive him home. seeeeeee my dad<3>

but yea, his face still cannot make it.

make me irritated at times.

i love you more.

you may not realise it. but yea, it has been a weeek.

& i hope there will be more to go ^^

hmmmmm, it has been the 6th torturing day since i last

seeen my dearie. && I MISS & LOVEEE HIM LAH.

haiyo! tomorrow still cannot see him seh. must wait till sat =/

all these exam days are just fucking shit. @#^*#&$!

how i wish that i could just skip this part of my life, schooing

without those scary exams(:

today had a day with my darling girlfriend and my dearmother! <3

hmmmm, suddenly realise that our friendship might

not be as strong as i think how it should be.

u should have seee clearly that i'm the one asking u out

ALL THE TIME. i'm starting to feel irritated & neglected.

after lots of thinking, my conclusion is u're closer to her.

& i won't ask you out anymore.

how our friendship shall be now depends on you already girl.

feeeling abit of the disappointment. &everytime on our anni

i wrote for you things wad did u contribute girl?

i didnt ask for anything just more of the time with me.difficult for you?

i don't wanna it to end. but.......... hai. everything changed.

and MOTHER'S day coming monday shall be a day with her :D

i may show some attitude sometimes lah, i apologise

but its because i care, not any other thing!

i'm spending more and more money and i have no idea why!

i'm missing you here.

thats always how relationship ends; the ending of everything.

=/ sometimes i seriously hope that someone would be in my shoes

and know how i feel. but no one does. sometimes i reallyreally

wonder if u're me how would you feel & what would u do.

i really want to know. because it does cause an impact on me & answer

for all my doubts. i hope i did not place my trust a wrong

way in you! u're trusted 101% ^^

i didn't ask for anything all i ask for is devotion.

& i seriously hope it won't be a short one

or a fling causecause, i'm serious about you.really *

Its you that made me feeel love for the second time,

its you that made me feel jealous again,

its you that made me forget the past,

and its also you that i feeeel a strong love for now.

you shall be the 1st and the last i'll wait for at all the mrt stations

standing on the high heels!

&& i shall apologise for eveything before hand in case

i can't keep it anymore bcos i know i may just blurt it all out.

i've a bad temper and i'm narrow minded ):

but i'm all jealous because i loveee you! not controlling you

alrights! =D

i don't wanna be one of the trend couples.

"if i like you i'll be with you BUT when i see someone better

i shall dumo you and leave you at the most find someone

else only wad, no problem for me one lah."

I DON'T WANT I DON'T WANT!

please everybody. every relationship holds ITS NOT A FLING.

and u guys should know better that girls have a vulnerable heart.

i said before its the moments that counts not the duration.

but now i wonder..................

u're my everything.

*gah* sorry for the late update! was busy with homeworks and tuition.

went to watch spider man 3 with hubbbbbby & my parents

on 5th march midnight :D the show dammm nice lah!

but again we landed on the first row. 2 yrs back we watched spiderman

2 and got the first row too! *rahhhh* dumb.

i want to intro yuzhen to victor & dearie say can one!

it's the second day i didn't see him already &&&&&&&

DAMMM I'M MISSSING YOU LAH DEARIE!

for you for you mr poh, :D

today woke up at 11am for tuition and i'm dammmm moodless

cause i slept at 5am ytd night playing majiong.

omgggg =/ and my mother still owes me money for losing okay! ^^

the days that shes not working, i realise that she really

does dotes on me alot. except for the quarreling thing just now lah~

=,= and peeps, for the anti-eileen friendster thing,

just stop caring lah. hate me for all they want i seriously

can't bother. (:

i love woopeixin!

why don't u try understanding how i'll feel?

enough, i won't say too much.