Life couldn't have been any better.

This was taken last week if i'm not wrong.

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The weather have been a total bitch for the past few

days. Staying in class makes me feel like i'm boiling.

It's freagging too warm. Oh god please let it rain!

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School? still a disaster. Chemistry distinction club

remedial's test was horrendous. What have i got? HAHA

10/30. I wonder how i've gotten 1 for N levels last year.

Think i've forgotten all about the theory and stuffs.

But i admit that paper was really tough one. (i guess?)

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I need moneymoneymoney to buy all my new clothes

and others that i've been eyeing for a long time.

This is bad... Os this year. Couldn't fork out any time

to really work and earn big bucks. Oh ya! i've a 2 days

event job this month with boony as we've previously

worked for them. Lucky boon and me. AHHAHA

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It's time for me to be on stage for the announcement

tomorrow again! A little jittery now. But it's okay since

i've been up there once. Speak slower Eileen poh k?

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Ngweising, you better clear your pimples if not imma

pinch and squeeze your pimples till you die...

ROAR-NESS. Loveyou :)

Webcamming with wz in the night.

Thats what we do when we get too bored. Not in the mood. i'll be back!

Love you weising!

Idiot boy of mine went to genting this morning and it feels

weird without having him to talk to me around this time where

he usually will call after dinner. I gave him a text not long ago

and he actually called me! I've been spending almost everyday

with him during my march holidays that's no wonder

why my holidays seems to end in a blink of an eye.

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Anyw, just to briefly summarise how i spent this holiday with him.

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Had quite a bad time with him during the first few days due to

something that happened. Shall not dwell on it since it's all over.

We had many heart to heart talks after that and i hope that it

helps in strengthening the communication we both share.

Caught a couple of movies together.....

Having dinners with my family and his family........

Went to robinson sale at expo and he kept mum even though

i've wasted alot of time shopping here and there.

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Therefore i came to a conclusion: I actually enjoy spending

my time with you weising. Have fun at genting!

Your girlfriend here is missing you okay.

Back.

Taken before zouk that night at home. HAHAHAHAHAA

I swear i looked 100 times uglier outside zouk as i was all

sweaty running around passing my buyers tickets.

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Just came back from the school trip to msia last night.

The sky was exceptionally beautiful over at desaru.

It was an awesome experience and was my first time

watching so many stars from a boat. In the midst of the

boat trip i told myself......

"The world is such a vast place for us to be in but yet it

still showcases it's beauty to us in a pretty sceneric view".

Sometimes i feel so good spending the whole night alone

watching the stars blinking away. Have you guys had

any experience where you had a tiff with your loved ones

but watching the stars eventually calmed you down?

I had far too many. But it sure feels good after that.

Ok why am i suddenly talking so deep into stars? Deviate

back please Eileen.

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Theres st james tonight but i guess i'll be giving it a miss.

Getting a lil sick of parties as it's always the same old thing

that happens. Girls there to get grinded and guys there to

grind. Boring activity to spend my night away like that.

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Oh yes! i need sellers to help me sell june's party tix.

Details all not out yet. Any interested, do feel free to email

me or approach me thru msn ok or even better, tag me.

I'll be anticipating many responses yeah?

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Should be meeting weising later. Bye!

With love.

Have all the good times covered the changeable ones?

I've been in a dilemma for days and the same thing had

been coming non stop. Have just one night of fun made you

guys forgotten about how hard it was for you to make the

first move? how cute it was that we're able to go out tgt

and have so much fun? how much you guys tell us that you

love us? Have you guys forgotten that you're attached?

Is that all you guys want afterall ?

I certainly hope not.

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I wonder why such a thing will happen. Is it my fault?

Why do ppl give up so easily? i'm sure we're all able to get

over this together but why did you guys chosed to give up?

I'll miss the times where all of us have fun outside.. really.

Not a thing to forget.

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Whatever it is... i'm downright disappointed in you wes.

Don't make it as though everything will be alright.

Because i know very well that i'll still continue to think

about this. If you think that i'm making a big fuss out

of this, then i'm sorry. Just tell me how many girls will

not care anyshit about it and i'll salute them. Sadly,

I'm not one of them. Nevermind, no amount of words

can change the fact anyway. Loveyou.

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Charlene! cheer up and i love you! :)

Zouk + phuture for the price of 20 only!

Quick get your tix from me!

EMAIL ME AT EILEEN_BLUESKY@HOTMAIL.COM

Tired

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Tired because i'm emotionally drained.

Tired of all my school work that isn't possible to complete.

Tired because i've no enough time to rest.

Tired as i'm trying my best to be the one for you

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I once told myself not to let anything at this point of time

affect my mood for studying. But of course as reality hits in,

you know it won't be as easy as what you thought and

planned. Indeed, life is all about setbacks, challenges,

racing with time, getting yourself heartbroken, exams,

family, friends, tears, happiness and death.

Why?

Why some people always have fantastic grades in their

report cards? Why no matter how hard some people

work, thats the best they are able to acheive? Karma?

Fate? No. I don't think life revolves around that.

I always believe, what you are... is what you think.

If you think you can, you will be able to do it.

If you think you can't, no matter how much effort you

put in nothing will be remunerated. Agree?

You guys think my results were easy to come by?

Definitely not in what i remembered. My results in

secondary three was terrible. I failed almost all my

subjects except for my languages. But i told myself

"Don't give up yet... try a lil harder, a lil longer you

can do it" and of course, i finally did it.

Yes, no doubt with a cost. I've really sacrificed alot.

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Sometimes i find it hard to understand human.

Why do we always lament on the past when it's too

late for us to do anything? Why didn't you put in your

best when you're given a chance? Most people tell me

"If i were given a chance now, i will choose to study

hard". Yeah yeah always the same old retro sentence.

I can say that too, but i chose not to. Because i don't

wanna live to regret my choice like them later on.

Moral of the story? : Always cherish chances given.

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No idea what is wrong... In case you don't know,

i really spent the whole day thinking of the possible

routes for you to take. But it all seems weird now.

Not all, maybe it's just us.

You left me with tons of questions in mind.

Love you.

Sick

Since nowadays i'm so tied up with school work, friends

family, bf and etc. i'll try my best to upload random peeks

taken on random. Those 2 that i just uploaded was taken

2-3 weeks ago and i can't rmb when.

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Gave school a slip today as i'm sick again. I think my

immune system suck a million times because it seems so

easy for the virus and bugs to intrude my body.

Falling ill seems to be a part of my life every one or

two months. How amazing is that [?]

It gets particularly irritating at times when i sneeze

4-5 times in a row and when the sneeze just don't wanna

come.(you know the feeling where you're kept on suspense due to the sneeze.

it sucks a big time, no doubt abt that)

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Everyone was asking "Eileen where you mia to huh?"

I'm so so so sorry about the fact that i've not been online

for more than weeks. Now i should reveal my daily school

routine to you readers and you judge whether i'll still have

the time to come online okay?

School from 8am-3pm daily (excluding days with extra lessons)

Ok lets make it 4pm i'll reach home. Obviously when

you just came home from school you'll laze ard and

just lie somewhere comfy right? 4pm-5pm- slack.

5pm-6pm Eat dinner. (i hate late dinnners, in case you don't know.)

6pm-7pm do my own stuffs- reading etc.

7pm-8pm weising will normally call me and chat.

8pm-10pm study 10pm-11pm chat and i'll turn in at

around 11pm. That exclude days when i have extra

lessons okay. Terrible life O lvl students are leading.

Just 8 more months that we need to endure.. gogogogo!

I know it's a lil crazy to see me spurring on myself.

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Oh yes before i forget. we're a month old alrdy! Time

really flies in a blink of an eye. The card was really cute

and er... childish. But whatever it is, still loveyou!

Looking forward to tennis on friday :)

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Hello ppl, zouk + phuture on 15th march.

GET YOUR TIX FROM ME NOW!

With love.

Hectic

Seems like time was never on my side.

Last week was commontest week again.. got back some results.

yeap, lousy and disappointing ones. English C5 Maths B4

Geog D7. Lets hope the rest won't disgust me.

So i've not been updating my blog. Even oblivious about me

having a nuffnang advert. I'm looking forward to holidays!

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Anyw, 15th march sunday @ zouk, reserve your tix from me

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It's very sweet to see all of you encouraging me out there.

Thanks so much. Love you guys!

I'll blog more after my tests this coming week.

Contemplate

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Why am i so busy everyday? How i hope i have another 6 hours

per day. Heavy responsibilities seems to be slowing my steps.

Honestly, i've lost my momentum totally.

I've been feeling lost and hopeless the past 2 months.

Everyone seems to be coping well with the tests, new topics etc.

What about me? To date, i think i've yet to get myself ready.

A very good evidence is my first common test results.

It shocked me, it really did. Despite being disappointed, i kept

telling myself to start studying to start studying but i never did.

Even if i spent hours sitting there trying hard to get books into

my head, it wasn't sucessful and was all in vain.

Recently, my mind doesn't seems to be with me. I've been

thinking of many redundant issues that i shouldn't at this

point of time. Everyone patted my shoulder and said

"Aiyah, don't worry it's a norm to get disastrous results in the

early stage of sec 5 but as time goes, you'll see the difference".

Do i have to go an extra mile and put in concerted effort?

Or do i just sit back, relax and still think that i'll be smart

enough to do last-minute-work? The teachers words have

been inccessantly ringing in my ears loud and clear even before

bed. But i just can't do it. i can't i can't i can't my confidence

is at it's lowest pit nowadays. What is missing from me now?

Wheres the Eileen i've seen last year? Disappeared.

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Feelings grow..... my did.

I just hope to build a relationship with a strong base now.

Because i know, when exams starts nearing i'll be deprived of

time. Time is precious i'll try my best to let our time tick

away meaningfully making sure we've cherish and made use

of every minute, every second.

I wonder if i ever treated you well enough. Did i?

Loveyou, weising.

(I'll be back to upload the pictures later! too many of em)

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It was hell-stressful for the whole time of last week.

Tests for us seems endless, new topics for us to learn within a

short time seems ever acheivable to the teachers, we've never

seemed to keep up to the expectations of the school ever since

creating the history of the whole class being eligible for sec5.

Whats all these nonsense being incessant?

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To add on, my results were terrible, horrifying and disgusting.

For your information i failed my english for the first time

in my entire secondary school life getting an ugly F9. Maths

with a B3, Science with a C5, Chinese with a C6, CombiH

with a D7 and Poa with a F9. Which sums up to passing only

three subjects this time round. How fabulous is that eileen?

I'm so afraid to break these news to my parents.

I swear i'll just be disappointing them a great-big time.

I needa mug mug mug mug. Time isin't on my side baby.

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On the lighter note, I gave school a slip today as the cramps

were really bad. hmmm... but it appears to be alright now(?)

Anyw, i'll be meeting zilahgirlf at tm ard 2 later as i can't

stand it anymore! i need to freagging shop and get myself

pretty clothes! thereafter, we'll be meeting ivy and the rest

for a lunchtreat by the birthday girl. So sweet of her isin't it?

Happy birthday in advanced! love you always shortie<3

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I might be meeting weising for movie later....

not really sure yet though. Pardon me i need to rant a lil.

This ugly boy of mine went to cut his hair last week and it

looks totally nightmare to me. Why like that?!?!!

Still love you though :)

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ROMP IV at Zouk(r&b) + Phuture(trance) on the 15th

march for $20. A cheaperoo grab! Get all your girlfriends

there and have the night fun and cheeky. Tag me or

Email me at Eileen_bluesky@hotmail.com if interested.

Hi all, menses cramps killing me badly now.

Tons of pictures need to be uploaded.

I'll blog tomorrow. Sorry for the missing!

Valentine's day.

"Happy belated V'day readers!"

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Let me rant a lil here first okay?

Anyw, i lost my Dkny watch mom bought for me on the

bbq night. This is infuriating! i swearrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

AND AND AND i lost my fav ring at wisma's forever21

ytd. Guess how..............?

i went to buy rings and i think while trying out the

size, i left my ring at i-don't-know-where.

Some assholes must have took it since that ring is

so pretty. Indeed, friday the 13th is really creepy.

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However........

Theres someone i ought to really really thank.

and it is non other than...... ngweising :)

Who will be that nice to

cab to eastcoastpark to see if my watch is still ard

without any complains even though i woke him up

early in the morning and even blamed him for not

keeping my watch? Who will withstand all my

naggings and nonsense? Who will say "nevermind i

still love you" even though i made him so angry?

Who will be so cute to cook for me because he made

me angry? I think no one other than you.

Happybelatedvdayweising,loveyouk!

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Of course... not to forget my bestfriends,

Justin Eugenia Zilah Jolene Wanzhuang Xinci......

Ahpweee! thanks for being there ok! get well soon..

Love you ppl too! *hugs and kisses*

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This is such a sweet and mushy post.

HAHAHAHAH WHATEVER I'LL BE BACK.

Interested in selling tix, tag me!

Hi to all, those interested in selling tix for parties,

Tag me. I'll blog soon! bbq tmr :)

With love.

Bored.

This was taken ages back.

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I failed physics. Helllloooo can anyone believe this?

How am i gonna maintain my A1 this way? no idea.

Can't blame... Physics is always the one pulling my

marks down. Damn it.

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Woooh finally tmr i'll be having the last paper.

Actually i don't really give a damn to poa anyway.

I totally have no idea how am i gonna score for 0s.

I need the drive to study please help me help!

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Shit i need to go onstage to read a book review to

the school during morning assembly on thursday.

I feeeling so jittery now.

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Yay friday 13th bbq at ecp with weising and friends.

The weather will be fine than any other! [i hope]

How do my readers normally celebrate v'day huh?

Tag me tag me! that's so interesting!

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You.

Helloweising.

Thanks for being there.

Loveyou.

Hello. Should i club tonight?

Should i should i should i?

I've gotten back my maths results! wanna make a guess?

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26/40

I would say, not that good. but guess what........

15 in our class failed and theres only 15 getting a b3 and

abv. That includes me! : )

Nevertheless, i'll work harder to make sure i'll get at

at least beautiful distinctions for the next few exams.

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i'll be back. xoxo

Chinese new year day 2.

"Miss blogging so much...."

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Ages since i last blogged. I'm so sorry! i've been having

my common test this week till next wednesday and it's

really driving me mad to venus! Schedule as tight as ever.

Time never seems to be enough for me these days.

What's more for maths paper for tomorrow? I'm dead.

Nothing touched, nothing revised and nothing practised.

I'll just keep my fingers crossed that i'll be that lucky.

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Anyw, chinese on tuesday was a disaster. The topic that

came out wasn't in the list of my forte and it gave the

whole lot of us quite an unpleasant suprise. Tried the

Anglo-chinese sec's chinese prelim paper and gotten

shitty marks. 13/30. Oh well.... maybe my chinese ain't

that good afterall. Shan't lose faith! Instead, i'll work

harder to make sure my marks improve. It doesn't

matter if it's just one or two marks... as long as i keep

improving. Oh yeah, English on monday was still

alright for me. My target is to at least get a B3-B4.

It'll be best if i can acheive better grades of course.

I can't believe how confident i was doing my SS paper

today. It was the first time in my life i know the

answer by heart.

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Okay so sorry about that. Just realise that up till now

everything that i've said is about school school and school.

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I'm thinking of getting a new phone.

Nokia E65 E66 or any other good recommendations?

Please give me some advice and tag me sweeeties!

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Weising! study hard please.

cny pics part 1

Hello readers!

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Those peekos were taken on the first day of chinese new

year. Anyw, didn't took much pictures this year.

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My common test starts next monday and stretches all

the way till ard like 11th of feb if i'm not wrong?

i'll die of fatigue soon i guess. i've not yet touch any

of the books therefore, i'm freaggging deaddddddd.

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I'm in a dilemma now! should i continue my streetjazz

2? wanzhuang not gonna join the class anymore!

which means taking train alone, walking there alone,

having dinner alone, taking the long bus ride home

alone. Comments asap? Thanks babies. :)

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I'm very tempermental... but why is someone able

to tolerate it no matter how extreme i get?

Good question.

Answer?

Drunk on my birthday party 12/31 '08

(a lil vulgar here. pardon me! a random rant here.)

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Miss the times when i get myself fucking drunk till

i'm oblivious about my surroundings.

Sometimes it just feels so good for that second without

anything to worry about. When am i gonna step out

of my own fucking circle? Sometime soon.

Faith? about there.

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Took alot of pictures during visiting! i'm gna post em

all up soon. woohoo pretty pictures.

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nearer.