Hate the way it is.

" Why is everything in my life so effing wrong for me?"

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Theres never once when i did something without any regrets.

Regrets eventually becomes a part of my life, grew with me

and right now i'm even used or should i say, immuned

to it. What to do? Thats the way my life is..... nothing can

liberate me from those sufferings.

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I had everything i wanted. Be it Friends, clothes, money

or whatever it is. But why can't i have something that i think

is so essential in my life? It's bad karma i guess..........

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These few days, i've been feeling real down.

Idk whether is it because my menses is coming or am

i really that depressed. I need a break.... I really do.

After all being said... still, i put on a calm demeanor

infront of all my friends as if nothing is going

wrong for me.

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I know my friends and you guys will say that i'm mad again.

But you people won't know how i feel...

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Tomorrow- Dance

Monday- Not sure

Tues- Working/Mum's birthday

8th of dec- I'll be off to taiwan.

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Yes, i'm down and sick.

Sometimes i really wished......