something gone so wrong & i think i'm going insane/haywired.
i don't know what the hell is wrong with me today.
till now, i'm still having this mixed feeling :/
feeelings of irritated + frustrated + sad + craziness
seee! i don't know whats wrong with me.
and i really feeel like screaming my lungs out.
hell it when no one understands and cares. roar
whats wrong with all these shit? all trying to act sweet
infront of me? go away please, faggots.
Please ppl stop/refrain from telling me about how sweet
your boyfriends are treating you. bcos i really hate it.
see whats the time now? 3.12am and i'm still blogging
because i'm really bored and sick. guess what?
tomorrow i've got cca to attend. how fun will my day be?
someone please cheeer me up.

don't think i don't know what you're
doingbehind me, slug

okay, please ah i'm really sick this time. ahhhh fever again!

& know what? i think theres something wrong with my com.

its dammm slow. should be some virus(s) again =/

did i present my results to you guys? =)

English 70

Maths 69.2

Comb Sci 63

Chinese 61

Comb humans 47

Poa 22

sorry, but i really suck at poa. i have no idea why!

i'm a good momma's girl today, bcos i didnt go anywhere

except for trimming my eyebrows and fringe (:

Jolene and her boyfriend came my house. oh damm

stop being so sweet infront of me please. don't make me jealous!

laughs. i wonder if anyone would dote on me like how

jolene's boyfriend do? *pouts*

nevermind, anyway i'll be very independent.

so mom, don't be worried at all. cause i've grown up.

& dad, don't worry cause i know who i'm mixing with and

what i'm doing. ; your dearest daughter.

define lust

two months ago your heart + my heart.
two months later mine's non of yours.
stucked at home for the whole day. because i'm bored,
i went to read all my past post. laughs how funny?
i'm reminded of what happpen just 2 months ago.
here i am sitting at the same chair and computer
blogging. but, in a different way i supposed?
and because of all those thoughts that came rushing back,
i felt very disheartening. whats more when his
friends kept reminding me of what happen?
today was my first time watching 200 pounds beauty
and i can clearly remember why i didnt watch it in
the cinema 2 months ago.
- i was grounded for a couple of weeks didn't manage to
meet him up. end up he went to watch with his friends
if i didnt rmb it wrongly. LOL
but now i'm happy just like how i used to. (:
okay, went to east coast yesterday with ______
played pool, eat and cycled. laughs
not really in the moood eh. i'll blog again.

i'm vulnerable. so?

guess what? i got 22/100 for my poa.
oh how proud i'm going to be of myself (:
okay i went ard singapore in my uniform eh
seriously jialat. i think i look like shit when
i have no makeups on. =/
HAHA i'll blog again.

guess what?

what the hell. i'm really tired today!
went town with kapo for balls of fury at cine.
& the show is darn funny. had been laughing non-stop
but i think hes even worse. laughs! gahgahgah.
after that went fareast to walk around and saw mother
and winnie. meet you guys up soon okay!
YAY. we had our dinner at TCC. (my fav)
i had beef mozza tofu and he had ______ chicken.
i rate the foood there 5stars please. they're really
very nice. oh ya, we've been crapping non stop in the mrt
and i guessed alot of aunties thought we're crazy
bcos our laughter's really loud.
********** we alighted at simei and continue crapping
while eating icecream. haha! how great can my day be?


when life's going very
entertaining.

okay, this KAPO here lying on my bed is v-cute

thanks to you yesterday (:

& we only spent 3 dollars on this kapo.

how lucky are we? laughs.

yesterday was really an enjoyable one.

bcos i've beeen talking non stop! HAHA

but too bad i can't disclose your name here

if not................ :/

blog again~

bye.

blog this fucking shit. i'm so bored __
i recently started to agree with the trend nowadays.
good looking guys going with normal looking girls while
good looking girls going with normal looking guys. oh my!
why is it so? i should really start to admire lesbians!
*pouts* can't figure out what guys are thinking.
but all these are vice-versa one lah, so can't blame.
andand i for this small little secret to share.
you know we ladies are troublesome.
we have to spend tons of time dolling up mascara etc.
& we even have to spend time cleansing our makeups.
see how tiring? i take abt 30mins-1hr if i'm going town
and 15mins if i'm going somewhere near just to make up.
please lah i'm already so tired and i still have to clean
all my makeups then can go to sleep.
now i'm going to disclose this secret........
first thing i do is use the biore cleansing oil and quickly
clean my face den i'll use my facial foam to wash my face.
and there i go NEUTROGENA FINE FAIRNESS TONER.
it really works because it doesnt only unclogg your pores blahblah
but if you had a heavy makeup earlier it really helps you to prevent
PIMPLES. bcos in the past i used clean&clear. know what?
next morning i woke up and god damm theres pimples.
so ladies buy neutrogena ~
bye.

thats how i loooked like when i studied too much,

laughs! as i promised, i'll blog today (:

because i don't even want to bother about monday's

last paper. POA! fucking hell shit subject.

ahahaa went town today with limdaphnieDORA, elton & peeps

and i saw noel and benji!

awwwwws misss them so much please!

better ask me out uh you bitches :D

okay my results are not-bad.

maths paper one 52/80 paper two 43/60

physics 31.5/50

SEEEEE THIS?! OH MY I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT

I'VE GOT FOR MY EOY EXAMS MAN.

YAY. AND I LOVE GOING OUT WITH DORAAAA :D

blog tomoro for details on face ~

i'll be back, this friday.

fuck this shit. exams are coming.

oh this few days had beeen real tired and busy for me

i've got tuition to attend almost everyday.

sorry peeeps, forget about asking me out for this couple of weeks.

and maths sucks. i really can't get hold of anything eh!

and this thursday my english paper alrdy and down will

all my exams start rolling in.

i can't get the books in my head please whats wrong?!

i really slack-ed too much this year.

days at school = talk+ sleeep+ laugh+ eat

fo the last half year of school. now i really regret uh!

especially for Poa and geog. reallly CMI

kanabeh. i shalll study real hard for the rest10 days!

wake and buck up eileen, you can do it.

blog again when i reallly have the time to. picturessssssssss :D

forget yesterday and i'll make a great escape. changed

these few days didnt turn very well for me.

i don't know whats becoming of me..

all i do is whine and tear, think and think.

tell me why, why am i so stupid? =/

i realised that i really can't communicate with guys.

& the problem really lies on me.

i'm selfish, i'm dumb and i'm stubborn but why?

why do i have a phobia for guys/ relationships now?

i so worried thinking about questions like

will my next be like the ones i had.

why do i always seeems so unimportant in people's

eyes? i'm so nothing.

& at the very beginning i knew, everything would change

and end up the same.

)'= bye/

life is short why not cherish each other while you can?

don't say about love when you don't mean it

you know, this is serious.

i had beeen feeeling down and disappointed these few days.

just because of the both of you it really spoils my mood.

ohhhhhh girl, forget it man. i'm tired real tired.

i can't and won't bother about your problems anymore.

from that day onwards... yours are yours &

mine are mine. i won't ask you what happpen like i used to.

i'll just pretend i don't know anything and keep my mouth

tightly shut. i think thats the way you like it to be right?

why should you lie to me about that?

oh you meant our friendship is so vulnerable?

oh you're afraid me to know because you think i will

disturb you? then fuck it babe. you don't know me well.

i said i was okay, i act as though i'm all fine with this,

i smile infront of you ppl like i used to.

oh please if you would understand you should know..

this ain't true. fuck you

and another one. oh girl... i loved you so much.

remember whose the one helping you all e while?

i fuckingly bet you don't. oh my.. those words hurts me

alot. why can't you think before you speak?

nevermind... after that incident, i think i know what

i should do. maybe i shouldn't bother you that much

since our grp doesn't dislike you anymore. am i right?

oh you girls no longer need me.

PLEASE FUCK THIS.

yay, i've got my red bed cover !

ohhhhh don't ask me why i love red that much please.

sudddenly thought of the past arghhh shit.

nevermind! i'm sick of this =/

post again tomoro.

bye :D

another post for today,
because 9 is my fav number :D

here i come complaining about LOVE again.
oh lovely, don't feeel sad anymore.
he isin't worth a single penny understand?
time to wake up lovely, this won't go on.
and now all those things came rushing into my head again.
i remembered how people told me.....
"hey Eileen, you know this won't work for the both of you just give it up"
and i could still remember how i reluctantly let go of everything
i put in. now its my turn to tell my friend. how funny can this world be?
things i wanted to tell you people badly:
dear zazilah, you know... h____ is really a goood catch.
see the way he perservere just because of a "yes" from you.
can't you see hes true and serious about you?
stop dragging anymore girl.. go for it ! =)
dear jolene, oh my dear... how long have you beeen ard with
y______ already? what are you still waiting for?
waiting for the sun to fall or the love to fade uh? both of you are like
so close for a period of time already why not give it a try? :D
dear xinhui, this silly sis of mine... always remember, don cry because
of some small things. i really want you to listen, because i've been
through much more then you. All this ain't sweet at all.
follow your heart, do what you want and what you like.
oh yea, and i suddenly don't really understand myself. you see you see..
i can tell people to go for it and give it up. but until now i can really
tell you people, i actually don't have the courage to do so. maybe because
i'm afraid. And stupid ass, please grow up and get a life.
my lovely ain't shit. shes shit. why wanna zaosai her when she treats
you so darn well?
Please tell me why people tends to appreciate and cherish things
around them only when things starts to fade away?
oh mymymy. i'm so sure this time i won't be so dumb anymore.
i really treat love seriously. have you?

bye.

its a cute and lovely friday today.
i actually slept at 4am in the morning. again and again i'm rotting at home. roars this shit.
my mum was like darn cute ytd midnight.
we had lots of girls talk we-never-had-before (:
once again i'm starting to love this home of mine.
oh my fuck it, i've got exams coming real sooon starting from
27th of sept. its really time for me to get the books into my head.
and yeayea, my results.
English 74
Maths 50
Chinese 66
Comb Science 56
Comb Humans 60
Principles of Acc NIL
oh nevermind, i'll so continue to work hard.
i want to watch movie ):
and i promise i'll blog very sooon,
bye :D

love is not something yearned, its something i wished fo.

walking down the streeets i see many sweet couples

at that moment i really wished i'll be so blessed like them.

maybe mum's words are true.

mum said at this age, don't love. bcos there're more outside

mum said at this age, we tend to neglect our studies

mum said at this age, we wouldn't understand each other

mum said at this age, love ain't true.

mum said at this age, i shouldn't have a boyfriend

till i've grown up and matured.

i don't understand why guys come and go in my life.

hmmm, because i'm not goood enough?

maybe? (: laughs. see now i'm making a stupid joke

out of it again. okay, i'm like so bored again.

nevermind i'll occupy myself with something big :D

bye.

ohh my god god god can anyone actually believe this?

its a friday and i'm fuckingly stuck at home.

i seriously hate being at home on fridays and weekends.

theres so many many things i wanna do right now!

go kbox and sing my heart out, go shop till i drop &

watch some very scary horror movies!

any takers? i'm like so boredddddd now.

and peeeps really sorry yea, it has been a long time

since i came online. apologise if i neglected some of you.

oh yah, i remember watching 1408 with zilah and jolene.

and people please don't watch that show.

at the beginning its like not-so-bad, middle its like

so-so and what is it all about now?

the ending is fucking lousy doesnt seems to scare

me at all. spent 7 dollars to scare myself but end up

"huhing" about that movie =,=

i'll rate that piece of shit 2 stars please.

AND I HAVEN WATCH DEAD SILENCE ):

i will not be in singapore.

bye.