Changes of Eileen. [part 1]

this year.. cny.

sec one. with baby and jolene(:
sec 2. we love cam-whoring in class.
sec 3. started being very disgusting..

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just realised 4 years of my life passes quickly...

many drastic changes were made to my life.

vividly remembered my first day in school with no friends..

vividly remembered xiaofang was the first to talk to me..

vividly remembered how wanzhuang and i quarrelled over friends

vividly remembered how i had fun with Eugenia, zazilah and lyna..

vividly remembered how jolene and i got closer..

vividly remembered having thousands and millions of tiffs with Eugenia..

vividly remembered how i started liking M during sec 1..

vividly remembered i was in tears of joy when i finally got tgt with him..

vividly remembered how things turn to quarrels and how we broke off..

vividly remembered what i became to when i was in sec 3..

vividly remembered how i came to know S during feb and got tgt during may

vividly remembered that i broke down many times after quarrelling with him..

vividly remembered how i got over him months later..

vividly remembered how i spent my time with daryl, kenny, SS, dick etc...

vividly remembered looking forward to a huge change in sec 4..

vividly remembered how i started noticing M

vividly remembered when and how i came to know him..

vividly remembered pondering why i would like him.

vividly remembered how i spent my valentine's day writing a card.

vividly remembered how i first spent 2 hrs on phone with you for that day.

vividly remembered how i waited for your messages..

vividly remembered how we started having endless arguments..

vividly remembered how much tears i shed...

vividly remembered how this ended.

vividly remembered how i tried in vain to let go.

i don't mind sharing everything with you, my readers.

yes, these few years i've learnt and change alot..

learnt how to look at things in a different way.

things will not always suit the way we want it to be.

sometimes, somethings just can't be controlled.

Feelings, People, Places etc.

Being alone in this house also left me many thoughts.

deep thoughts that i've never had before when i was younger.

now i know where the problem lies on...

I was never contented.

never contented nor cherish what i had.

i took everything forgranted readers. I'm too dependent.

This is not any emo post. i just wanna remind myself how

and what i was like before. i'm always weak

at handling emotions.. all i always did was hide act and hide.

yes, you've got the best of me.