came online just to blog. i guess, just no one understands

oh yea my birthday is coming again.

actually not much of a big deal. but this time i want

to make really goood use of this time to reflect.

laughs, how many of us actually ponder about what

we did for the year? shouldn't be more den my fingers.

initially, i was very excited about my birthday.

as soon as it comes, i started to have the emptyness

within me. i don't know whats wrong.. but i hate to

be alone. be it walking or eating i just hate being alone.

i wonder when can i really start to be independent,

responsible, hardworking and a sensible girl that

need not be so so dependent on my friends.

i've been trying, really trying hard...

but it just doesnt seems to work on me. yea,

cher said i should let go when i need to. Its easier

said den done. how many of us really let everything go

when we have to? please tell me whats wrong with

me this time round.. cause i really have no idea.

tell me, just tell me i'm deprive of concern.

a big toad thanks to you girls today the credit goes to

jolene zilah xinhui xuanhui wanzhuang.

you girls really did brighten up my day to the brightest.

shouldnt blog about today cause i ain't in the mood

to do so.. so no moood for my birthday anymore.

no big deal.