I'm not using this site anymore... i've changed link!

decided not to delete this page because i really love

reading abt my past.

Thanks for reading lovableens!

Omg. i've not been blogging for say 2 months?

Giving myself a break from this site because i've now

prioritise books my 1st. O lvl is merely 9 days away and

i don't think i'm prepared. nope, don't even have the

urge to start studying at times.

.

Fuck got me.

Got B3 for my chinese. Disappointed x 10.

No words can describe how badly you hurt me with

your words. Dad, why there isin't once you feel proud

and satisfied of what i've achieved?

Just why must you put me down? Is B3 really

considered lousy? :'(

.

You'll never understand how i feel.

Because, you're not me.

Long

Blogger is finally functioning. It wasted 10 mins of my

life ytd and kept me annoyed for the entire night.

Maybe afterall, i shouldn't abandon this site as

it has been with me for 3 years. From the most

memorable days to the most difficult phase, it kept

me going.

.

You know this site cheered me quite alot when i was

in the lowest pits. I look at the past entries and

couldn't help but laugh to myself. Those days

when i hurled vulgarities, those days when i had 3

inches worth of makeups on me.

Interesting and memorable indeed.

.

Also, this space kept times i've spent with my

ex boyfriends. wouldn't say it's anything worth

remembering.... but it's actually quite amusing to

come to a realization of how much i've changed

these few years. yadayadahhhh.

.

In case some of you might be wondering abt.

why lovableens? because,

Lovable + Leen = Lovableens!

That's real smart of me 3 years back righttttt.

.

You know dear, i thank god for your presence.

With love.

F.r.i.e.n.d.s
Thankfully, I've learnt how to see who are my true

friends and whos not. Sometimes in life, we're bound

to befriend some wrong people. Back then, being

the ignorant and naive girl i was, i thought i'm really

good in choosing who to mix with and who not to.

I thought i was old enough to decide for myself.

I was wrong.

.

I just realised that i couldn't give an answer if you

were to ask me if whos my bestfriend or who i'm now

closest to. Two years back, if you were to ask me the

same question, without any hesitation i'll tell you

who. I used to care alot, really. But i gave up.

I wouldn't want to waste my time on a friend that

doesn't appreciates me as much as i do.

.

Friends changes too. They might be the one closest

to you this second and the next, they'll probably

be stepping over your head. Time flies....It has been

5 years. Should i say it's too short for us to

really see whos the one being nice or should i say

that it's so long that we no longer bother to

care about how one another feels?

.

Maybe after we've all parted then will we realise

that all along, we've always been good friends.

Friends that have been through lots of and lots of

obstacles together, friends that have been caring

for one another......... in silence.

.

Shall we all talk?

To love,

Having difficulty waiting for this freagging time to

end. Can't wait for W to be back cause i'm missing

him just a tat too much and it's unbearably bored

w/o him on weekends! Hehe no doubt hes still the

bestbestbest person i can spend my weekend with.

You know without you,

blogger is my bestfriend.

.

I'm still deciding if i should stop blogging here and

change to somewhere where i'll get enough privacy.

Should i or should i not? this is irritatin.

What do you guys think?

.

I've this strong urge to party now.

my life is like a sad cow without it's food.

Do you understand do you understand do you huh?

.

more pictures tmr. bye.

Bored

Life goes on and i'm back to my schooling life.

F.sick about it because i know it v.well that i'm not

those who really adores sitting down doing math,

science or even english. Just couldn't wait...

couldn't wait for time to pass as quickly as it could.

I've always been day-dreaming abt how fantastic

life would be after my Os. You know that always

made me have a feeling that is impossible

to be put into words. leh

.

I think for the past few months i haven't been doing

at the optimal level. I too know that i've slacken

down quite alot. Don't worry i'm a little sick of

seeing those disappointing results. My marks have

been failing me these few months! What Ms J

said in class today was quite true. I wouldn't want

to be put into a situation whereby i regretted not

studying well enough because i thought i could do

it without any revision.

.

I always had this thinking..... and my chem marks

proved me utterly wrong today. Kinda feeling guilty

for not studying now :( ya know i can see that Ms

J was very disappointed in me bcos she gave a loud

sigh when she passed me my paper. sad x 100000

O lvl chinese oral tmr. wish me luck.

.

Web-camming with weising now.

i.want.a.new.camera.

A thing called love

Thanks Weising

.

for the care you've showered me with

for those suprises that you gave

for those stupid noises you made on phone

for those names that you called me

for those times when you accompanied me

for those times you said i'm perfect

.

All these made me know how to appreciate myself

just better.

Too many pictures. In summary,

Holidays coming to an end but i've not really enjoyed

myself yet. Homework not done... gotta do it later.

Speaking of homework reallyyyy makes me sick.

.

Butterfactory tomorrow. Interested pm me.

i'll be back.

Tired

Back from batam. Feeling so much contented with

what i have now. The washrooms over at batam were

real horrible x 10. No one can ever describe the

word 'constipation' as well as i do. Laughs

.

Summerfest @ siloso tomorrow yay.

Party time.

.

I'm.deprived.of.sleep.

i'm out of town .

will be back on friday .

see you guys then ! :D

I dead!

i'm having flu symptoms now and the worst thing

is, i've been hanging out with darliney's sis who just

came back from melbourne! the plane that she

boarded had 2 or 3 infected passengers.

I'm worrying like one mad dog now because i've been

attending birthday parties these few days.

.

Most likely tomorrow's batam trip with my family

and D will be cancelled too. Double the whammy :(

I've been looking forward to this trippppp since

the term closed! The best part comes here............

.

MOH going over to D house today to check

and i think D's whole family might be quarantined.

Which concludes that, i might be affected too.....

since i had close contact with D.

.

Keeping my fingers crossed that we'll all be fine.

With love,

.

Interested in butterfact on 23rd? Pm me now!

Advert

Land of the lost

a big screen adaptation of Sid and Marty Krofft’s 1970s

television series about a mysterious land populated by dinosaurs

and other creatures. It stars Will Ferrell, Danny R. McBride,

Anna Friel and Jorma Taccone. Released on the 11th june.

.

Got to watch this show on the 9th with darliney at Lido all

thanks to OMY for sponsoring bloggers the tickets! :)

.

A fan of sexual comedy? this is a show not to be missed!

Some parts were really hilarious and downright retarded that

i'm sure you couldn't help but laugh yourself off the seats.

For that, i promise!

Oh yesyes. If you really love those dinosaurs, ET, etc

you should really watch this! Reason being, the dinosaurs

look so real in Land of the lost! I SWEAR!!!!

Rating 3.5/5

.

Wait no more! catch this show with your buddies and watch

how much you guys will enjoy this show now!

Bad girlfriend am i?

That day when you said "you treated me like shit" i felt

really badd. I know throughout these 6 months that

we've been tgt, i'm always being the unreasonable

meanie. I too know that you've always been the one

giving in. There were times where i'm disgusted the

by way i treated you even though you're being

such a nice boyfriend.

.

Sometimes i just couldn't help but kept thinking if i'm

the one for you. I'm sure without me, theres still better

girls out there who treats you way better than i am.

.

I really don't understand. I really don't.

You're not obliged to give in to me. but why are you

always being so understanding? you've never once

shouted at me. but i've always been the one yelling at

you. you've never said i screwed things up but i've

always been saying that to you. you've never once

utter a word about how bad i've treated you. but i'm

the one always blabbering about how bad you were.

I've always been comparing you to other guys. but

you've never once compared me to any other girls.

i've always been saying that you're lousy. but all you

said to me was "you're perfect". You've gave me all

the suprises you could. but i've never once given you

any.

.

I'm feeling very ashamed of myself.

.

What should i do?

I'm sorry. Love you.

Tired

No time to blog. i'll be having school daily from 2nd of

june till 12 of june 8am-4pm! what's worst is.... from

tmr to sat, 8am-9pm. Drainnnnedddddd.

.

I'll be back real soon!

StJames on the 7th OR

Buttterfact on the 23rd? Interested???

PM ME!

.

And click on my nuffnang advert! thanks

It's 12.15am now and i have not slept a wink.

In case some of you do not know, Chinese Os is just like

3 or 4 days away. Not too long to go, yet not to short to

have the last chances to create miracles.

School these few days were everything about chinese.

We were drilled to do everything by an error free and

perfecting our writing in the shortest time possible

so much that my brain stops functioning at times.

.

Till these days then i started realising that even

Chinese as a language, has it's own beauty that will

only be realised after long practices of writing and

speaking. (HAHA weird me today because for my

entire life, i've not been speaking good of chinese.)

.

Sometimes i actually felt that theres a significant

change in how life was like from last year and this

year. Although theres more to handle, more to do

and more to study...... i'm kinda starting to tune

myself better to this hectic lifestyle without the stress

i was dealing with last year and even started to get

the momentum.

.

Of course, my life doesn't only revolves around studies

but also many more interesting factors that made

me what i am today. I'm no nerddddd HAHA.

.

Anyw, i'm having some problems deciding whether

i should pursue Business Studies(Human Resource),

Advertising & Public Relations or Law & Management

Suggestions anyone?

A week ago

Hi guys i'm dead beat!

.

oh yes my results......

Eng B3(Shocked.highest in class. i know it's wtf)

Science B4(irritated and disappointed)

Maths C6(no words will be able describe this)

Chinese B4 (Ranked 3rd in class. i know it's wtf again)

Combi humans F9(no comments)

Poa F9(no comments too)

.
Ok tata! i.need.my.sleep.now

You

All taken last night after dinner over at my house

and theres still more in my webcam folder.

Without any makeups and acting random... sorry ah!

.

Oh did i mention last friday i went marina mandarin

for buffet dinner at the aquamarine? Not sure

whether did i get it correctly anot. Anyw, food there

was OK but not to the peak where you'll still rmb

how the it tastes like now. But i got to agree that

the chilli crab(one of the chef's recommendation)

wasn't disappointing. Luckily enough. HAHAHA

Per head at $58+++ so... rating? 3.2/5

.

Darliney and me took lotsa pictures over there but

i'm lazy to upload them here. Mayb over a facebook?

Uploading pictures onto my com is no longer a

hassle with it. It's such a breeeze over there with

one click and everything done nicely! Sounding like

an ambassador for facebook now rightttt.

.

Mid year exams finallly over! So, done with one

little hurdle. Oh wait, wouldn't say it's even a hurdle..

mayb a small little bump? Having mixed feelings now

partly because exams ended but Os chinese coming

in like what? 11 days? anddddd i have a hunch

that i didn't do great this time round. badddddd

.

Meeting kennyoji and kyler later over at tampines

mall or T1. Been long since we last met up for a

drink. Might be meeting darliney for movie at night

.

Love

Wanted to post pictures but couldn't bring myself to.

My uncle(mom's cousin) commited suicide on the 15th

of may. He jumped off his house on the 14th floor.

Life is so beautiful yet so fragile. Rest in peace.

.

Vaunt 4 at StJames on the 7th june! reserve from me!

Love.

That's me without a pinch of makeups last sunday at

Tampines 1 with darliney and my cousins.

.

OK WAIT. look at the picture again!! see my thin

brows lying there lifelessly bald on my face? that's the

'fabulous' job the ugly old and fat auntie did to me.

Just compare his brows with mine... HAHAHAHA.

.

Exams weren't as bad nor as good as i thought.

But still, it didn't scared me any. My life still goes on

like how it was supposed to be and i'm really enjoying

every bit on this. Thanks to ppl like Efah, Zilah and

Xinhui who've been there with me whenever i'm in

desperate need for someone to talk to and also, never

failed to laugh at my not-funny-at-all jokes.

Love you girls alot

(i think you guys are the only friends that i enjoyed being with.)

Friends changes, Friends moves

Friends drift, Friends leaves......

I've experienced it more than any that i actually don't

bother to care anymore. Efah! i think we're the same

so.... we should love each other even more :)

.

Hehehehe let's deviate from this topic lest i get myself

emo or sadddddddd again.

.

I'm going to parkway later to meet denz and darliney

and he don't know any shit about it!

Yay gonnnnnnaaaaa suprise him.

.

7th of june St James Mixed aged.

Reserve your tickets from me!

Birthday night

That's the cake i baked with darliney- the strawberry

cheesecake ;) sure loook nice huh?

.

Lucky enough they didn't check darliney and me.

Anyw, i was kinda high that night and was dancing the

night away on the tables and sofas.

Total madnessss but i really had fun fun fun.

.

Anyw, I bought a polaroid ytd and it takes f.nice

pictures hoooraayyyyy. (he paid half for it too)

.

Many more pictures with his sisters.

Shall post them up soon!

Amara hotel , Korean Cuisine

Dinner was super filling yesterday + the cheesecake

i think i've gain mayb a kg or two? Saddddddddddddd

i must really stop eattting man. You people won't

believe how much weight i've put on since dec till now.

But i'll openly tell you ppl that i've gain er.....

3kg? or mayb a lil more. I need holidays!!!!! Because

it has always been a norm that i lose weight fast

during the holidaysssssssss.

.

I forgotten to take a pic of the cake we baked ytd!

Shall get it from Darliney's sis soon ;)

.

Tonight club. What to wearrrrrrrr?! this is driving me

nuts. Gtg! i'll be back posting pictures.

.

.

.

.

Oh wait, before i go........

HAHAHAAHHA i took lots of pictures with darliney

ytd and i loook f.ugly which is evidently seen on the

pictures above.

Hatred (Please skip this part if necessary)

.

I'm fuming mad i swearrrrr. The damn auntie at the

trimming specialist(located at tamp inter) is damn fat,

stupid and ugly. I stepped in,told her that i wanna

trim my eyebrow and even purposely said "i don't want

it to be thin... just want it to be neat" she said "ok".

Oh wow look at the fantastic job she've done to my

brows now.... i look like i'm naked. AND she didnt

even trimmed any single shit! all she did was just

shave shave and shave!!!! I EVEN BLED @#*%&#$!

The rest always did a goob job for me except for her.

Please do not think that i'm overreacting. As girls, we

should all know that our brows play a bigbig part in

our overall appearence rightttttttttt.

F.

.

On the lighter note, darliney and me baked a cheese

cake yesterday and it looks awesome-ly gooood!

(althought the big one was kinda screwed)

But anyw, we're going some hotel for dinner at night

with his family for his sis birthday. Let's just keep my

fingers cross that i won't end up ravaging the food on

the table. Don't wanna put on any more weight!

.

Sorry weising. I'm really sorry for always being so

unreasonable. And thanks for always being sooooo

understanding and nice. It's our 3rd.

Love you ;)

.

Pics taken later in the night will be uploaded soon!

Missssssss

Why do i look so ugly in this photo huh?

HAHA pardon our red faces because we drank that night.

(26th april over at eugenia's house)

anddd this saturday we'll be celebrating darliney's sis 20th

birthday at some club/bar ssoooooo it's time to have fun!

.

(random)i'm satisfied with my current hair because

it doesn't look as ahlian-ish anymore due to the

fact that i've snipped off all the thin and long ends.

I think i look much more freshen up, neater and most

importantly TALLER! (long hair actually shortens your frame

especially if you're already short enough. HAHAHAHAHAHA)

My hair is growing in lightning speed i swear.

.

Only two days since we last met and i'm missing

darliney like a madwoman alrdy. The incessant thinking

of him make me feel very much like a pervert at times.

Wonder how is he doing for his soccer trials in school

now???? Please work hard k darling.

Loveandmissyou! ;)

.

SUPPORT www.lavinty.blogspot.com!

All sides of me.

Been long since i last posted pictures of myself and i

finally got to posted some of myself today. I've more of

darliney and me to upload soon.

.

Pardon me for the f word i uses here (pls skip this part if necessary)

.

I've been doing nothing at home since 12pm except

for sleeping, eating, using lappy and talking.

I seriously think that i've been wasting my life for

more than half a year and this is realllll baddddddd.

I just can't get any books into my head cause i'm

just f.lazy and this is really pissing my ass off.

It's reallyreally f.irritating and i feel like awarding

myself a big fat slap. Last week's mid year papers

wasn't scaring any shit out of me and this is

freagging weird because it wasn't any bit like this

last year. I think i should stop going out till late in

the nights because i'm getting so used to it like no

one's business. "Hello Eileen, so... you think you're

not taking your major exams this year huh?"

Why aren't the hear of Olvls scaring me? Someone

please infect me with some stress of yours so i'll

get my ass of the chair and start mugging.

Fuck.

.

This week was kinda shitty for me.

Had many tiffs with darliney and sometimes it puts

wondering if our relationship is going the wrong way.

I think i'm most to blame. Dominance is the perfect

word for the fault of mine....... i guess.

Thanks for always trying your best to give in to my

wants and needs and didn't even utter a single word

though i've been complaining abt how bad you are.

I'm really sorry about that and i love you.

.

Anyw, i've got new stocks for Lavinty and it's really

pretty! do rmb to mention you're lovableens's reader

and get 10% of total receipt!

www.lavinty.blogspot.com

Some facts that you might not know about me

.

I'm actually considered a little indo-chinese bcos my

grandpa is from batam. But i guess the indo blood in me

is kinda diluted now? My dad's fault!

I've not inherited my mum's pretty features all because

of my dad! Which i'm always whinning about.

.

I don't fart unless i'm having severe tummyaches.

Hole in my stomach? might be.

.

I'm very pissed now as i've earlier tried to upload pics

here but it failed! And i've tried more than once.

Trust me i'm cursing blogger very much now.

.

Anyway, support http://www.lavinty.blogspot.com/ ok!

we'll bebringing in vintage watches soon. Stay tuned.

www.lavinty.blogspot.com

Hi dear readers,

please support me at www.lavinty.blogspot.com

I'm trying my best to bring in vintage accessory pieces

as best as possible. Lavinty is having it's opening sale now!

.

Do mention that you're lovableens's blog reader and

get 10% off your total receipt!

.

With love,

Hair

I swear my hair looks longer in this picture. I guess I just

snipped of like 4-5 inches of my hair? ****Cries****

However, i'm lucky enough as 8 out of 10 people usually

regretted it from the change of long to short hair.

I supposed? HAHAHA. (actually sometimes i do miss my long hair)

Most of my friends commented that i look more matured

in this hair. What do you guys think then? Tag please!

.

My results are on the average this time round.

English 20/30

Maths 25/40

Chinese 32/50

Combi Sci 43/60

Combi Humans 21/35

.

Next week mark the start of Mid year exams.

It's also a norm for the school to set 'killer papers'.

I'm trying my best to keep myself on track and sadly to

say, to date, i've not been working hard yet.

But i do really wanna score and make myself proud.

Let's just keep my fingers cross that last minute studying

still works for me just like how it always did.

.

It's friday tomorrow which means, Kennyoji will be back

in singapore after 4 long months overseas.

.

Weising, study hard k? loveyou.

Sick

Evidently as seen from the webcam pics of me and weising,

you'll get to see that i don't really bother about how i look.

It's not that Eileen've turned lazy.

I find it weird to as to why wouldn't i bother about

my looks anymore when i'm with him. Too comfortable?

I GUESS SO? HAHAHAHAH. WEISING, BE A DEPRESSED

MAN FROM NOW ON AS YOU WON'T GET TO SEE ANY

PRETTY THINGS FOR QUITE SOME TIME IN YOUR

LIFE. Cheers or tears? Loveyou :)

.

Anyw, i'm really too lazy to post the second design of the

vinty earrings today. probably tomorrow?

.

This is irritating. i just can't wait. can't freagging wait to

graduate and move on to poly. Envious of those who used

to be in my batch in poly now. Life seems to be moving

much more slower over there.

.

ANYWAY BIG NEWS.

I CUT MY HAIR DAMN SHORT YTD. NOW MY HAIR

IS ABOVE MY CHEST. IMAGINE HOW SHORT IS THAT.

Photos will be up soon. Tell me your comments yeah!

Selling this vintage earrings #1!

Fancy adding this pair into your vintage collection?

Don't hesitate! it's specially imported by me! Unique piece

that you won't find on streets!

.

BRAND NEW YOURS ONLY AT SGD$14.90

.

Interested? Tag or email me!

Hurry! few instocks left!

Forsaken

I forgotten about my blog totally. Life's sickening.

I hate myself!!!!!!!! why the fug can't i just eat less and

exercise more? i need to shed some fats i swear.

but schooling always seems to be a hurdle for me to slim

down. Prolly because we tend to eat more due to stress?

HAHA. high possibility.

.

Ok i'm gonna make a to-do-list now and the deadline

for everything to be done will be on the erm... 11/11/09.

WHY? because it's the day when i'm done with Os.

.

1st: To save $1000 for clothes spree

2nd: To lose 5kg (which is s-diff to attain)

3rd: A Trip overseas with close friends

4th: Aiya many more. can't think of em now.

Brain dead.

.

I'll continue my long to-do-list soon.

I'm feeeling damn shiokkkk now because i just had my

online shopping spree. And i've spent more than 300

bucks this weekend on things that i don't really see except

for some clothes from dorothyperks and topshop.

.

I REALLY NEED TO GET OVER WITH OS ASAP.

Can't wait for the day i'm liberated from this freaging

exam. That day will be the day i'll throw all my books

away and hug everyone on the streets screaming on

the top of my voice "I've GRADUATED" like finally

after 5 long years in the secondary school being ugly

all the time without even complaining.

.

HAHA

With love.

Life couldn't have been any better.

This was taken last week if i'm not wrong.

.

The weather have been a total bitch for the past few

days. Staying in class makes me feel like i'm boiling.

It's freagging too warm. Oh god please let it rain!

.

School? still a disaster. Chemistry distinction club

remedial's test was horrendous. What have i got? HAHA

10/30. I wonder how i've gotten 1 for N levels last year.

Think i've forgotten all about the theory and stuffs.

But i admit that paper was really tough one. (i guess?)

.

I need moneymoneymoney to buy all my new clothes

and others that i've been eyeing for a long time.

This is bad... Os this year. Couldn't fork out any time

to really work and earn big bucks. Oh ya! i've a 2 days

event job this month with boony as we've previously

worked for them. Lucky boon and me. AHHAHA

.

It's time for me to be on stage for the announcement

tomorrow again! A little jittery now. But it's okay since

i've been up there once. Speak slower Eileen poh k?

.

Ngweising, you better clear your pimples if not imma

pinch and squeeze your pimples till you die...

ROAR-NESS. Loveyou :)

Webcamming with wz in the night.

Thats what we do when we get too bored. Not in the mood. i'll be back!

Love you weising!