Omg. i've not been blogging for say 2 months?

Giving myself a break from this site because i've now

prioritise books my 1st. O lvl is merely 9 days away and

i don't think i'm prepared. nope, don't even have the

urge to start studying at times.

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Fuck got me.

Got B3 for my chinese. Disappointed x 10.

No words can describe how badly you hurt me with

your words. Dad, why there isin't once you feel proud

and satisfied of what i've achieved?

Just why must you put me down? Is B3 really

considered lousy? :'(

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You'll never understand how i feel.

Because, you're not me.

Long

Blogger is finally functioning. It wasted 10 mins of my

life ytd and kept me annoyed for the entire night.

Maybe afterall, i shouldn't abandon this site as

it has been with me for 3 years. From the most

memorable days to the most difficult phase, it kept

me going.

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You know this site cheered me quite alot when i was

in the lowest pits. I look at the past entries and

couldn't help but laugh to myself. Those days

when i hurled vulgarities, those days when i had 3

inches worth of makeups on me.

Interesting and memorable indeed.

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Also, this space kept times i've spent with my

ex boyfriends. wouldn't say it's anything worth

remembering.... but it's actually quite amusing to

come to a realization of how much i've changed

these few years. yadayadahhhh.

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In case some of you might be wondering abt.

why lovableens? because,

Lovable + Leen = Lovableens!

That's real smart of me 3 years back righttttt.

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You know dear, i thank god for your presence.

With love.

F.r.i.e.n.d.s
Thankfully, I've learnt how to see who are my true

friends and whos not. Sometimes in life, we're bound

to befriend some wrong people. Back then, being

the ignorant and naive girl i was, i thought i'm really

good in choosing who to mix with and who not to.

I thought i was old enough to decide for myself.

I was wrong.

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I just realised that i couldn't give an answer if you

were to ask me if whos my bestfriend or who i'm now

closest to. Two years back, if you were to ask me the

same question, without any hesitation i'll tell you

who. I used to care alot, really. But i gave up.

I wouldn't want to waste my time on a friend that

doesn't appreciates me as much as i do.

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Friends changes too. They might be the one closest

to you this second and the next, they'll probably

be stepping over your head. Time flies....It has been

5 years. Should i say it's too short for us to

really see whos the one being nice or should i say

that it's so long that we no longer bother to

care about how one another feels?

.

Maybe after we've all parted then will we realise

that all along, we've always been good friends.

Friends that have been through lots of and lots of

obstacles together, friends that have been caring

for one another......... in silence.

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Shall we all talk?

To love,

Having difficulty waiting for this freagging time to

end. Can't wait for W to be back cause i'm missing

him just a tat too much and it's unbearably bored

w/o him on weekends! Hehe no doubt hes still the

bestbestbest person i can spend my weekend with.

You know without you,

blogger is my bestfriend.

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I'm still deciding if i should stop blogging here and

change to somewhere where i'll get enough privacy.

Should i or should i not? this is irritatin.

What do you guys think?

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I've this strong urge to party now.

my life is like a sad cow without it's food.

Do you understand do you understand do you huh?

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more pictures tmr. bye.

Bored

Life goes on and i'm back to my schooling life.

F.sick about it because i know it v.well that i'm not

those who really adores sitting down doing math,

science or even english. Just couldn't wait...

couldn't wait for time to pass as quickly as it could.

I've always been day-dreaming abt how fantastic

life would be after my Os. You know that always

made me have a feeling that is impossible

to be put into words. leh

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I think for the past few months i haven't been doing

at the optimal level. I too know that i've slacken

down quite alot. Don't worry i'm a little sick of

seeing those disappointing results. My marks have

been failing me these few months! What Ms J

said in class today was quite true. I wouldn't want

to be put into a situation whereby i regretted not

studying well enough because i thought i could do

it without any revision.

.

I always had this thinking..... and my chem marks

proved me utterly wrong today. Kinda feeling guilty

for not studying now :( ya know i can see that Ms

J was very disappointed in me bcos she gave a loud

sigh when she passed me my paper. sad x 100000

O lvl chinese oral tmr. wish me luck.

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Web-camming with weising now.

i.want.a.new.camera.

A thing called love

Thanks Weising

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for the care you've showered me with

for those suprises that you gave

for those stupid noises you made on phone

for those names that you called me

for those times when you accompanied me

for those times you said i'm perfect

.

All these made me know how to appreciate myself

just better.

Too many pictures. In summary,

Holidays coming to an end but i've not really enjoyed

myself yet. Homework not done... gotta do it later.

Speaking of homework reallyyyy makes me sick.

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Butterfactory tomorrow. Interested pm me.

i'll be back.

Tired

Back from batam. Feeling so much contented with

what i have now. The washrooms over at batam were

real horrible x 10. No one can ever describe the

word 'constipation' as well as i do. Laughs

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Summerfest @ siloso tomorrow yay.

Party time.

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I'm.deprived.of.sleep.

i'm out of town .

will be back on friday .

see you guys then ! :D

I dead!

i'm having flu symptoms now and the worst thing

is, i've been hanging out with darliney's sis who just

came back from melbourne! the plane that she

boarded had 2 or 3 infected passengers.

I'm worrying like one mad dog now because i've been

attending birthday parties these few days.

.

Most likely tomorrow's batam trip with my family

and D will be cancelled too. Double the whammy :(

I've been looking forward to this trippppp since

the term closed! The best part comes here............

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MOH going over to D house today to check

and i think D's whole family might be quarantined.

Which concludes that, i might be affected too.....

since i had close contact with D.

.

Keeping my fingers crossed that we'll all be fine.

With love,

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Bad girlfriend am i?

That day when you said "you treated me like shit" i felt

really badd. I know throughout these 6 months that

we've been tgt, i'm always being the unreasonable

meanie. I too know that you've always been the one

giving in. There were times where i'm disgusted the

by way i treated you even though you're being

such a nice boyfriend.

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Sometimes i just couldn't help but kept thinking if i'm

the one for you. I'm sure without me, theres still better

girls out there who treats you way better than i am.

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I really don't understand. I really don't.

You're not obliged to give in to me. but why are you

always being so understanding? you've never once

shouted at me. but i've always been the one yelling at

you. you've never said i screwed things up but i've

always been saying that to you. you've never once

utter a word about how bad i've treated you. but i'm

the one always blabbering about how bad you were.

I've always been comparing you to other guys. but

you've never once compared me to any other girls.

i've always been saying that you're lousy. but all you

said to me was "you're perfect". You've gave me all

the suprises you could. but i've never once given you

any.

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I'm feeling very ashamed of myself.

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What should i do?

I'm sorry. Love you.

Tired

No time to blog. i'll be having school daily from 2nd of

june till 12 of june 8am-4pm! what's worst is.... from

tmr to sat, 8am-9pm. Drainnnnedddddd.

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I'll be back real soon!

StJames on the 7th OR

Buttterfact on the 23rd? Interested???

PM ME!

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And click on my nuffnang advert! thanks

It's 12.15am now and i have not slept a wink.

In case some of you do not know, Chinese Os is just like

3 or 4 days away. Not too long to go, yet not to short to

have the last chances to create miracles.

School these few days were everything about chinese.

We were drilled to do everything by an error free and

perfecting our writing in the shortest time possible

so much that my brain stops functioning at times.

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Till these days then i started realising that even

Chinese as a language, has it's own beauty that will

only be realised after long practices of writing and

speaking. (HAHA weird me today because for my

entire life, i've not been speaking good of chinese.)

.

Sometimes i actually felt that theres a significant

change in how life was like from last year and this

year. Although theres more to handle, more to do

and more to study...... i'm kinda starting to tune

myself better to this hectic lifestyle without the stress

i was dealing with last year and even started to get

the momentum.

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Of course, my life doesn't only revolves around studies

but also many more interesting factors that made

me what i am today. I'm no nerddddd HAHA.

.

Anyw, i'm having some problems deciding whether

i should pursue Business Studies(Human Resource),

Advertising & Public Relations or Law & Management

Suggestions anyone?

A week ago

Hi guys i'm dead beat!

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oh yes my results......

Eng B3(Shocked.highest in class. i know it's wtf)

Science B4(irritated and disappointed)

Maths C6(no words will be able describe this)

Chinese B4 (Ranked 3rd in class. i know it's wtf again)

Combi humans F9(no comments)

Poa F9(no comments too)

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Ok tata! i.need.my.sleep.now

You

All taken last night after dinner over at my house

and theres still more in my webcam folder.

Without any makeups and acting random... sorry ah!

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Oh did i mention last friday i went marina mandarin

for buffet dinner at the aquamarine? Not sure

whether did i get it correctly anot. Anyw, food there

was OK but not to the peak where you'll still rmb

how the it tastes like now. But i got to agree that

the chilli crab(one of the chef's recommendation)

wasn't disappointing. Luckily enough. HAHAHA

Per head at $58+++ so... rating? 3.2/5

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Darliney and me took lotsa pictures over there but

i'm lazy to upload them here. Mayb over a facebook?

Uploading pictures onto my com is no longer a

hassle with it. It's such a breeeze over there with

one click and everything done nicely! Sounding like

an ambassador for facebook now rightttt.

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Mid year exams finallly over! So, done with one

little hurdle. Oh wait, wouldn't say it's even a hurdle..

mayb a small little bump? Having mixed feelings now

partly because exams ended but Os chinese coming

in like what? 11 days? anddddd i have a hunch

that i didn't do great this time round. badddddd

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Meeting kennyoji and kyler later over at tampines

mall or T1. Been long since we last met up for a

drink. Might be meeting darliney for movie at night

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Love

Wanted to post pictures but couldn't bring myself to.

My uncle(mom's cousin) commited suicide on the 15th

of may. He jumped off his house on the 14th floor.

Life is so beautiful yet so fragile. Rest in peace.

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Vaunt 4 at StJames on the 7th june! reserve from me!

Love.

That's me without a pinch of makeups last sunday at

Tampines 1 with darliney and my cousins.

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OK WAIT. look at the picture again!! see my thin

brows lying there lifelessly bald on my face? that's the

'fabulous' job the ugly old and fat auntie did to me.

Just compare his brows with mine... HAHAHAHA.

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Exams weren't as bad nor as good as i thought.

But still, it didn't scared me any. My life still goes on

like how it was supposed to be and i'm really enjoying

every bit on this. Thanks to ppl like Efah, Zilah and

Xinhui who've been there with me whenever i'm in

desperate need for someone to talk to and also, never

failed to laugh at my not-funny-at-all jokes.

Love you girls alot

(i think you guys are the only friends that i enjoyed being with.)

Friends changes, Friends moves

Friends drift, Friends leaves......

I've experienced it more than any that i actually don't

bother to care anymore. Efah! i think we're the same

so.... we should love each other even more :)

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Hehehehe let's deviate from this topic lest i get myself

emo or sadddddddd again.

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I'm going to parkway later to meet denz and darliney

and he don't know any shit about it!

Yay gonnnnnnaaaaa suprise him.

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7th of june St James Mixed aged.

Reserve your tickets from me!

Birthday night

That's the cake i baked with darliney- the strawberry

cheesecake ;) sure loook nice huh?

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Lucky enough they didn't check darliney and me.

Anyw, i was kinda high that night and was dancing the

night away on the tables and sofas.

Total madnessss but i really had fun fun fun.

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Anyw, I bought a polaroid ytd and it takes f.nice

pictures hoooraayyyyy. (he paid half for it too)

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Many more pictures with his sisters.

Shall post them up soon!